The Hope of Life

Change of blog address

2008-04-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

My blog address changed to: http://cynthiaho.wordpress.com/.

5 years

2008-04-02T08:55:00.001+08:00

5 years lah! It had been such a long time. Hope that we will be together for another 15 times of 5 years. Haha! May God bless us.

Darling, my love to you will always change – grow deeper and deeper in love with you!!

My love will get you home

2008-04-01T19:05:00.003+08:00

My Love Will Get You Home - Christine Glass

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

Whenever I listen to this song, I remembered the 2 characters in 糖心风暴～ Heart of Greed, Alfred & 常在心。

They loved each other so much. But due to mistake made by Alfred, 常在心 finally gave out and they broke up. Alfred spent his greatest efford in order to make 常在心 forgive him. But slowly, he start to use another way to love 常在心. He stop pushing and forcing her to forgive him, but he love her whole heartedly and unconditionedly.

They really love each other, but lastly death kept them apart.

Whenever I listen to this song, I will ask myself to treasure whatever that I am having. Not only to Mic, but to everyone around me that I love and loves me.

PHeewW~~~

2008-03-28T11:08:00.004+08:00

Today I lose my cool again. As a leader and head of a department, I know I should always act cool and steady. However, whenever there are obstacles happen during busy days, I will lose my cool.

Today is the 2nd last working day of the month and I am arranging fund to be transferred into the bank account that we use to pay salary out. My duty is to ensure all the employees in my company get their pay on time. Happened once before that I failed to do so and it spoilt my weekend and holiday. (Ppl called and complaint why was salary not paid). So, I told myself, not to repeat the same mistake again.

Thank God that it was the only time for me to fail my duty. Things might go wrong sometime. Many reasons can cause me to fail my duty as it required co-operation from many parties. Sometimes, I have to even beg the banker to wait for the fund to be remitted and thereafter help me to pay out to all the employees even after their working hour.

This month is a tight month. I squeeze the bank account to the max and arranged 2 cheque to pay the salary. And this early morning, banker call me and inform me that 1 cheque from my supplier got rejected and I have to arrange other fund to be remitted for my salary payment. I got shock and start my other arrangement and finally, everything over and done with. However, I know that the way I handle thing, still not matured and not steady enough.

I know that the reason why God allows for all the hiccups to happen in my job is to train me to be more firm and steady. I know that He is getting me ready for bigger task ahead.

One day, I will surely equipped with this fruit of Holy Spirit-patient.

Via Dolorosa

2008-03-22T22:33:00.003+08:00

-- copy from Mic's blog

Down the Via Dolorosa in Jerusalem that day
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
The Man condemned to die on Calvary

He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death

Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
But He chose to walk that road out of His love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.

Por la Via Dolorosa, triste dia en Jerusalem
Los saldados le abrian paso a Jesus
Mas la gente se acercaba
Para ver al que llevaba aquella cruz

Por la Via Dolorosa, que es la via del dolor
Como oveja vino Cristo, Rey, Senor
Y fue El quien quiso ir por su amor por ti y por mi
Por la Via Dolorosa al Calvario y a morir

The blood that would cleanse the souls of all men
Made its way through the heart of Jerusalem.

Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King
But He chose to walk that road out of His love for you and me
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary

Penang trip

2008-03-14T22:51:00.003+08:00

WooHOo~~~~~~~~~ Tomorrow am heading to Penang... Oh yeaH~~~ can you sense my happiness?

Meeting Sis' family & Mic together....

Mic said, the best moment is the waiting moment. Coz time flies when we are happy... and left with leaving sorrow... Well, I will treasure the moment when we are together....

Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday -- 5 days trip to Penang.

My heart is flying...

Chloe, yiyi is coming... You must recognise me ok? Dun make yi yi sad sad ok? Cannot cry cry when yiyi wanna hug u ok?

Assistant

2008-03-11T09:30:00.003+08:00

It is really a blessing if one can get a capable assistant. I thank God for bringing this girl to me as my assistant. I am clever enough as I know the reason why she took half day leave today is to attend an interview in the afternoon. Though I feel sad, I still pray that God will bless her and lead her to the most suitable place. I am confident that God will always bless me with good team of colleagues. Thank God.

在祢手中

2008-03-02T15:07:00.005+08:00

在你手中~赞美之泉~

耶和华我的神，祢是我的神，我的好处不在祢以外。
祢是我的产业，我杯中的分，我所得的祢为我持守。
我将耶和华常摆在我面前，因祢在我右边，我便不致动摇。
我的心欢喜，我的灵快乐，我的肉身也要安然居住。
我将耶和华常摆在我面前，因祢在我右边，我便不致动摇。
在祢面前有满足的喜乐，在祢手中有永远的福乐。

诗篇16：11在祢面前有满足的喜乐，在祢右手中有永远的福乐。

这是今天我教小朋友们背记的经节。

当我默想这节经节时，我便禁不住深深的感恩。。。我可是天父的宝贝哦！

每当遇到困难而开始担忧时，我都会告诉自己：怕什么？我有耶稣啊！当我想到这一点时，顿时重担落下。感谢主，我已经学会将困难交托于天父。

上星期五是发薪水（出粮）的日子，可是在之前的两天，薪水所需用的款项还没汇到我公司的银行户头。担心之下，我抬头对上帝说：主啊，怎办？没钱啊！当下，我才知道，感谢主，我已经学会将我工作上的难题对上帝诉说。

昨天，当我准备好今天的儿童主日学所要教导的课程后，我为着我的事奉向神祷告交托。我对上帝说，“主啊，明天我将对小朋友们讲述祢在迦拿所行的第一个神迹。。。。”顿时，我惊觉，我的事奉竟然是那样贴近神的。是讲述主所行的第一个神迹哦！再次，感恩。。。

太多、太多，与主一次又一次地交流，圣灵一次又一次的同工。。甜蜜，太甜蜜。。。

感谢主，因我属祂。。。

I think I started to know...

2008-02-29T08:49:00.002+08:00

Today in the counseling class, we talked about self image. I had prepared my script but who knows I spent only 15 minutes to finish what I prepared. I know that next time I should prepare at least 2 pages of script so that I could fully occupy the 30 minutes available.

Yesterday while I was preparing for today's lesson, I was thinking what is God's calling in my life. I have been thinking of this matter since I accepted Christ, but I still yet to receive a clear calling from the Lord.

During last Sunday service, is my turn of being the song leader. 10am sharp, service begin. When we were singing the 1st song, out of a sudden, I saw something wrong from the face of the congregation. Yea, again, something is wrong with the laptop.

Thank God that the 2nd song that I chose was hymn song, which we could get it from the hymn song book. So I requested the congregation to turn to the hymn song book and start to sing hymns. After the 2nd song, I randomly chose for another 2 songs from the hymn song book since there is no signal shown that the laptop is back to service.

Finally, I was informed that the laptop is back to service. And I ended the Praise and Worship session with the last song that I chose.

In between of the speaker’s sermon, the speaker acknowledge of my steadiness in handling the non- conformance case. She says that it would be a waste if I am not willing to be used by God.

I do not expect of this incident and I am really amazed when seeing God affirming me using this speaker from outside.

Now is the time that I supposed to come back to reality and start my walking. Frankly speaking, I have been standing there and looking up at the sky. Just like the Galilees who were looking intently up into the sky as Jesus was going to heaven. So, I should stop looking and start my journey with the Lord.

When I was preparing for the Sunday school’s teaching and also counseling class, I really feel that I was created for that purpose. I think I start to know the purpose why God created me. I think I know what God had put inside my heart when he was creating me. Thank God.

Song dedication

2008-02-26T19:50:00.004+08:00

Dedicated to: Michael Chan

迦南美地- 刘耕宏

我们在不同的环境下慢慢长大
wo men zai bu tong de huan jing xia man man zhang da
We grew up in different environments

用着不同的想法看着世界变化
yong zhe bu tong de xiang fa kan zhe shi jie bian hua
Having different ideologies and views of the changing world

直到我们相遇的那一刹那
zhi dao wo men xiang yu de na yi sha na
Till the moment we met

心与心的碰触开始为彼此牵挂
xin yu xin de peng chu kai shi wei bi ci qian gua
Our hearts touched each other, and we started pinning for each other

浪漫的故事写下了一篇篇情话
lang man de gu shi xie xia le yi pian pian qing hua
We wrote pages of love stories for our romance story

虽然动人的情节难免会有分叉
sui ran dong ren de qing jie nan mian hui you fen cha
There are often distractions in the touching scenes

但有着爱的缘故，我就不怕
dan you zhe ai de yuan gu, wo jiu bu pa
But because of love, I’m not afraid

直到天上来的祝福充满着希望
zhi dao tian shang lai de zhu fu chong man zhe xi wang
Knowing that God blesses us and we are full of hope

不管在哪里只要和你在一起
bu guan zai na li zhi yao he ni zai yi qi
No matter where we are, as long as we are together

就像走进了迦南美地
jiu xiang zou jin le jia nan mei di
It feels as if we were in Canaan

每一处都有甜蜜布满空气
mei yi chu dou you tian mi bu man kong qi
Everywhere, sweetness surrounds the air

爱情的真谛没有什麽能代替
ai qing de zhen di mei you shen me neng dai ti
In real love, there is no substitute

不管在哪里只要和你在一起
bu guan zai na li zhi yao he ni zai yi qi
No matter where we are, as long as we are together

就像走进了迦南美地
jiu xiang zou jin le jia nan mei di
It feels as if we were in Canaan

每一天躺进爱里握住生命
mei yi tian tang jing ai li wo zhu sheng ming
Soaking in love everyday, treasuring life

来不及回忆拥有温馨的爱意
lai bu ji hui yi yong you wen xin de ai yi
There is not enough time to recall the warmth of love

在你我心里
zai ni wo xin li
In our heart

喜乐

2008-02-22T21:47:00.003+08:00

要如何才能靠主常喜乐？

第一、要凡事靠主

第二、要有谦让的心 --「谦让」表明溫柔、仁慈、和平、慷慨、不竞争、为別人设想的意思。

第三、相信主已经近了

第四、當一无挂虑

真的，当我能够做到这几点，就能靠主常喜乐。常常就是看得太远，跑得太快，想得太多，以至失去了焦点。所以，欣薇啊，你要学习专注。还没来的问题，不要先忙着烦恼。凡事让主来带领，就是以祷告将问题交托。

11:28凡劳苦担重担的人,可以到我这里来，我就使你们得安息。11:29 我心里柔和谦卑，你们当负我的轭学我的样式，这样，你们心里就必得享安息。（马太）

清心的人得見神
何谓清心 - 清心的原意是清洁纯全，也就是“心地纯洁”的意思，所以清心的人心地纯洁，清洁，圣洁，在他心中没有杂念，恶念，更没有贪欲的怀念头摻杂他里面。
清心的人应有的表现 - 清心的人因心純洁没有杂念，不会为世上的俗事缠累而心裡烦乱，所以充满的都是纯净快乐得心思，不会去计算别人的坏处没有怨忌害人的念头。所以充满的都是善良，热诚爱人的心思。不贪恋肉欲，眼欲，名位，没有淫乱，邪情，私欲。所充满都是洁净，敬虔，纯正的心地。

知足，常乐。

凡事感恩。

一生的功课。

!!!!!

2008-02-21T16:59:00.002+08:00

Cynthia, can you stop taking cold beverages/dessert? It is not good for your health! You know it but yet u still do it??? AARRGGGHHH!

小故事，大智慧

2008-02-20T15:06:00.001+08:00

你开着一辆车。在一个暴风雨的晚上。你经过一个车站。有三个人正在焦急的等公共汽车。一个是快要临死的老人，他需要马上去医院。一个是医生，他曾救过你的命，你做梦都想报答他。还有一个女人/男人，她/他是你做梦都想嫁/娶的人，也许错过就没有了。但你的车只能在坐下一个人，你会如何选择？我不知道这是不是一个对你性格的测试, 因为每一个回答都有他自己的原因。老人快要死了，你首先应该先救他。你也想让那个医生上车，因为他救过你，这是个好机会报答他。还有就是你的梦中情人。错过了这个机会。你可能永远不能遇到一个让你这么心动的人了。

在200个应征者中，只有一个人被雇佣了，他并没有解释他的理由，他只是说了以下的话：“给医生车钥匙，让他带着老人去医院，而我则留下来陪我的梦中情人一起等公车!' 每个人我认识的人都认为以上的回答是最好的，但没有一个人（包括我在内）一开始都没想到。

小哲理：是否是因为我们从未想过要放弃我们手中已经拥有的优势（车钥匙）? 有时，如果我们能放弃一些我们的固执，狭隘，和一些优势的话，我们可能会得到更多。

【皮鞋的来历】很久很久以前，人类都还赤着双脚走路。有一位国王到某个偏远的乡间旅行，因为路面崎岖不平，有很多碎石头，刺得他的脚又痛又麻。回到王宫后，他下了一道命令，要将国内的所有道路都铺上一层牛皮。他认为这样做，不只是为自己，还可造福他的人民，让大家走路时不再受刺痛之苦。但即使杀尽国内所有的牛，也筹措不到足够的皮革，而所花费的金钱、动用的人力，更不知凡几。虽然根本做不到，甚至还相当愚蠢，但因为是国王的命令，大家也只能摇头叹息。

一位聪明的仆人大胆向国王提出建言：「国王啊！为什么您要劳师动众，牺牲那么多头牛，花费那么多金钱呢？您何不只用两小片牛皮包住您的脚呢？」国王听了很惊讶，但也当下领悟，于是立刻收回成命，改采这个建议。据说，这就是「皮鞋」的由来。

小哲理：想改变世界，很难；要改变自己，则较为容易。与其改变全世界，不如先改变自己--「将自己的双脚包起来」。改变自己的某些观念和作法，以抵御外来的侵袭。当自己改变后，眼中的世界自然也就跟着改变了。如果你希望看到世界改变，那么第一个必须改变的就是自己。「心若改变，态度就会改变；态度改变，习惯就改变；习惯改变，人生就会改变。」

Jobseeker

2008-02-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

It has been quite some time since I last login to Jobstreet. Feeling want to change job after a year in currrent company. Mic will be working in Subang Jaya soon. Shall I look for a job at that location too? Really feel want to. Is the timing right? Lord, please show me the right way.

Valentine's day 2008

2008-02-14T20:03:00.002+08:00

Thanks darling for giving me such a big surprise today. You are so sweet. I love you.

Chinese New Year

2008-02-11T11:12:00.000+08:00

Back home @ 9:15am. Air Asia checked in 7:10am, arrived Senai airport 8:45am. Thanks darling for fetching me to LCC terminal.

During 1st day of chinese new year, I met my 2ndary schoolmates as usual. Since last year, we no more going around visiting friends. Instead, we come out and have karaoke session. (we are too embarrass to receive ang pow..haha!)

This year, a special guest joined us. So long time since I last met him. Having complicated feeling when meeting him. Don't know why, just before the gathering, I had a feeling that he will join us for the gathering, and it turned out to be real. Well, if I can foresee this day 10 years ago, knowing that I will have a loving darling after 5 years, I would have save all my tears. Well, those day had gone and I am thankful to God for bringing Michael to me.

That's all about life. We always so used to say: "if I knew this would happen, I would have.....". Thank God that I am His prescious child, and I can have His peace always, knowing that He will always lead me to what he thinks best suiting me.

Just like this song, "上帝的儿女何等有福".

在压力中仍能平静，在忙碌中仍能悠闲，
在失败中仍能欢笑，在逼迫中仍能屹立，
上帝的儿女何等有福。

（副歌）
有福，有福，上帝的儿女何等有福。
有福，有福，上帝的儿女何等有福。

在绝望中仍有盼望，在冷漠中仍有关怀，
在困境中仍有出路，在死亡中仍有生命，
上帝的儿女何等有福。

We always have hope in Him. We are blessed! Dear Lord, even though I can't see tomorrow, but I know you hold the future. Thanks Father.

2nd day of Chinese New Year, I went to KL and back home today. Even though Mic did not plan for any exciting trip, but having him with me is the best gift ever.

Tomorrow got to start working, finish up my January reporting package to Holding company. Dad & Mum & Sis coming back on Wed..

Thank God for everything.

1st day

2008-02-01T11:35:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of this year I attended the counseling class for SMK Puteri Wangsa. The class that was assigned to me for this year is 4PA1 & 4PA2. Thanks for the arrangement, which make me really looking forward to see the bunch of kids. I was once 4PA1 student and now I am teaching them.

The kids are soooo adorable. Even though it is quite funny to use adorable to describe teenagers, but they are really adorable in my eyes. Today I introduce a Christian song which is not so Christianised to them and ask them to learn and sing along. After many rounds of solo by me, finally, they are willing to sing along with me.

45-minutes class ended fast. When I were about to leave, I was told that they were born in the year of Monkey which is same as me. I was so shock that this bunch of kids is exactly 12 years younger than me!!!!!

I was once a teenager too…….

Who are u? I have so many friends named Cynthia...

2008-01-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

Just now I msg 1 friend in my yahoo list, she asked me who am I.

Feeling so surprise.

I remembered her clearly as she was once greatly affecting my life.

But she has forgotten about me.

Then why am I still remembering the past?

Let go, let go...

I will be able to forget it. I will..

你所认识的神

2008-01-03T10:40:00.000+08:00

若我们随意挑选自己喜欢的属性，把这属性的合成品当作神，结果我们以为自己在敬拜神，其实只是在自制偶像。所以，我们心中敬拜的神必须在观念上与真神相合。

回顾2007

2007-12-31T23:59:00.001+08:00

想了真的很久，不晓得该如何写这篇2007年的最后一个post。终于决定用中文来写。用母语真的比较容易表达咧。

2007年终于要成为历史。年纪越大，时间过得越快。无奈啊！如果没有时间的限制，那该有多好啊！所以，我盼望着永恒，更盼望着与我爱的所有人在一起的永恒。

2007年，正式成为合格会计师，在事业上算是小小地跃进了一步。在新的公司（都一年了，也不算新啦！）待了一年，虽然上司的离职让我一度感到失落，可是却让我得以与同事老板携手应对工作上的难题。与同事、下属相处融洽，总算让我在这新职位上站稳了脚步。

2007年，接任教会主日学代校长，半桶水的我竟然得以安然就任。感谢主，也谢谢众弟兄姐妹们的齐心协助。除了接任主日学代校长，我竟然在同一个时期接连筹备数个活动：儿童主日学国庆周、生日会、儿童主日学之晨、差传年会年刊、教会周年纪念、圣诞节儿童及成人布道会。而在这其间又得以参与钦教会所主办的短期宣教。忙碌的筹备让我从中获益匪浅，更让我学习如何处理压力及人际关系。

再有，2007年，我荣升为姨姨。说实在的，我抱那小可爱抱得非常开心。托姐的福，让我有荣幸，更有机会参与小宝贝的成长过程，更让我免费学习照顾小宝宝，并让我增添了育婴常识。有姐姐在家里的这几个月，让我倍感幸福与温馨。

写着写着，突然间不想写了。好啦，就这样，回顾了2007，展望2008。明天会更好。

I love them

2007-12-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

So soon, year 2008 is coming. Time passes too fast.. Can slow down?

Enjoying the time with my families. My elder sister have been with me for the past 5 months, and she has to go back to Penang soon next year. And my little niece have to go back too... NO... NO.......sob sob...

My younger sister is coming back... Yeh!!!! Even though sure will have quarrel, but I just love to have her with me.

Love my family... Mum & dad really sayang us.. sisters are so loving... I am really blessed...

Lord, pls help me to love them more... May you bring all of us closer to you, and we will be closer to each other.

I want to have all my families in heaven too... and we will be together till eternal...

Happy birthday to you!

2007-12-13T00:00:00.001+08:00

Darling, it has been 1716 days since we started our relationship, and this is the 4th time for me to have the pleasure sharing your joy on your birthday.

It seems to be such a long time since the day we came to God in prayer when we decided to be together. Indeed it is not easy to come to this point as we had gone through a 4 years + of long distance relationship. It could be something impossible for other people, but thank God that He bonded us together in His love.

There might be quarrels, cold war within us, but I know that both of us love each other very much. It is not easy to love, and I thank God for giving me the chance to learn to love you. I know that there are still rooms for me to improve myself, especially in learning to be submissive to God and you. I couldn't promise that I will be a perfect girl friend, but I will not give up in learning to be a better person and to be more like Jesus.

Lastly, I want to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to you, for everything you have done for me, and loving me dearly all this while.

I can never forget, how you show your care and love to me...

I can never forget, during my moody days, how you bring me back to laugh...

I can never forget, when I feel bored, you are there to entertain me...

I can never forget, when I need someone to talk to, you will always be there to answer me...

I can never forget, when I need a listener, you are there for me...

I can never forget, when I did something wrong, you are there to correct me...

I can never forget, when I am in my blurrness, you are there to remind me...

I can never forget, when I feel helpless, you are there supporting me by your prayers...

Thanks for walking along with me, holding my hand tightly and always afirming me that you are there loving me always.

I am blessed to be in love with you.

Happy 26th birthday to my darling Michael.

matching principle

2007-12-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

Have been so busy lately. Christmas is just around the corner!!! Busy with all kinds of preparation for church events and functions. I was requested to design a dance for kids... This is what I never do before. Thank God that my sis helped me with it. I can't even think of how to design! This area is something which I really have no talent at all. Yea, I am really dumb in all kind of designing... designing cards? designing dance? decoration? I really have no talent. But my sis has them all.. haii... sometimes when I see some wonderful handicraft done by others, I am really amaze... and really hope that I can have this talent. However, I know that I have to be grateful. I am also having some talent that other people might not have. I am hand and you are leg, she is head and he is eyes. Everyone having different talent and all of us make up the body of Christ. Since I am hand, just hope that next time I won't need to walk. Hand can't walk!!

Something on my mind...

2007-11-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

There are some memories during my uni time which always with me, and I really enjoy of looking back at them...

I still remember the time when exams were near, I woke up early in the morning, looking for a place around the campus and settled myself there for the whole day for studying. There are many places can become my study place, and my favourite place will be: at Engineering Building. There was a place at 2rd(or 3rd?) floor near to Lecturer's office, with few compartments, complete with tables and chairs. That place has now being built into Tutor's office. That was a wonderful and silent place. Even a drop of needle can be heard. There were 2 compartments being linked together and I might be studying together with another stranger for whole day. Near to the compartment, there was a pantry for the lecturers. I remember that I even can study with the refrigerator becoming my table.

Apart from the compartments near to lecturer's office, the 2nd place that I love to study is FOM Building. There is an open space also near to the lecturer's office. There were few big tables and chairs at that place (should be placed by some other student). And I even woke up early early in the morning, 5am, and went alone to this place to study. Sounds daring right? But I just felt alright at that time, with no sense of fearing. As my exam were on 9am in the morning, and I study straight from 5am to 8:30am and went straight for exam.

Of course I do study in library, but not so often as library always crowded with people during exam period. But I love to go to library when I was finished with my last paper, but yet to go home for trimester break, just to enjoy the moment of burden-free, and to feel the feeling of exam. However, since I knew Michael and before we started, I spent more time in library, just to enable him to search me easily (ohh.. how caring am I :P)...

Oh, not to forget, another place which I love to study -- the food court. During the windy nights, the best place for studying would be in foodcourt. Especially when I will easily being tempted to fall asleep in other places, food court will be the best place for studying. Sometimes when I was too tired of studying, I can look around and sometimes I could see some real life show. I couldn't remember how many couples did I see eating and dating at food court, some studying like me, some chit chatting with friends, some even having meeting in foodcourt. It was fun looking at them and drove away my boredom.

There is 1 more place which you might not even think of. I even studied at stair case. Stair case of hostel blocks, stair case of FOE & FOM building, all can become my study place.

All the places contributed to my Bachelor degree in Accounting, 2nd upper class.

Those were time when I was in MMU. It is meaningful to me. I enjoy the time when I was alone. I enjoy studying.

Those days will never come back, but I will remember them forever.

点点滴滴

2007-11-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

好久都不曾用中文在我的布落格上留下心情点滴，今天非来个淋漓尽致不可。

听着赞美之泉敬拜赞美专辑12-最珍贵的角落。这是一张福音的专辑，首首歌曲都极接近流行音乐的风格，可又不失福音歌曲的味道。看得出赞美之泉正积极并有方向的推出他们一张又一张的作品。

数个月前，我的办公室搬迁到了公司自置的一栋建筑物，虽然小是小了点，可是毕竟不用每个月缴付租金，我是不会太介意的。不知不觉，成为这间公司的Accoutant已有近一年的时间。为公司省钱就成了我的习惯。每当看到有人浪费水电时，会感到心痛；想尽方法想要为公司多省下一笔；为了为公司省钱甚至甘愿答应Auditor我自己来draft account, 做Tax & deferred tax, 只为了将Audit fee 维持去年的价钱；也不介意为公司参加一些banker所举办的contest，并将奖金归于公司。。。我想，老板请到我，他自己也很开心吧！哈哈！

搬迁的好处还有一样：以往疏离的人际关系也因办公室变小而同事间相处得更融洽也更密切。这对我来说可是意外的惊喜哦！感谢主！再有，我不需要走得老远的去到我下属的座位，而这间厂与main plant又是两隔壁，除了没有什么隐私及说电话时会被左邻右舍干扰以外，也没有什么大缺点了。

不久就到圣诞节了！又到欢庆主降临的节期了。我还记得我信主后的第一个Christmas，这个节日也因着救恩临到我而变得有意义。有时信主久了，会将起初的热忱给忘了，甚至连主耶稣在我生命当中所成就的神迹也给一一的忘却。我怎能呢？每当读着别人的信主见证，自己不自觉的便会热泪盈眶，岂不知道，主耶稣在我的生命当中也实实在在地写下了一篇又一篇的见证，见证祂的真实。

有时真的很恨自己，怎能在遇见试探时马上屈服？怎能看重别人过于我主？怎能喜欢阅读其他的刊物更胜于圣经？怎能在问题产生时怀疑主？在上星期的儿童主日学时，唱到一首历史悠久的儿童诗歌-耶稣爱我：耶稣爱我我知道，因有圣书告诉我，凡小孩子主牧羊，我虽软弱主刚强，主耶稣爱我，主耶稣爱我，主耶稣爱我有圣书告诉我。就是那么简单，主耶稣爱我, 祂的爱永不改变。

盼望我能为祂结出圣灵的果子。

My cute niece...

2007-11-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

talk rubbish

2007-11-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Deepavali. Normally when come to festive season, I will definitely go on leave and meeting mic. However, for this Deepavali holiday, I did not go anywhere.

Frankly speaking, most of the time when I am free, I feel bored. Just like yesterday, I watched TVB series for whole day. The feeling is like, the whole day is wasted and gone. I can choose to go out with friends, but I am just too lazy to socialised with people. I feel like going for shopping, but the feeling of shopping alone is wierd. So, I ended up staying at home hugging TV. You must be thinking: why don't you read your bible since you are so boring. The reason why is because, I let myself to be so.

On Wednesday, something happened to me. I quarrelled with my colleague. I know that I was wrong as I can't control my temper. I was in bad mood since Tuesday night due to some reason (don't feel like sharing it here). And it has caused me to have bad mood for few days and even till this moment. I don't mean to quarrel and I know that quarrel doesn't help in solving problem, but I just want to let the other party knows that she should have respecting me. It is hard to cooperate if without this basic respect. I might not quarrel with her if I was not in bad mood. She shouted at me at last and this ended up the quarrel.

It is really challenging of being a human. So many problem facing each day and I have to always remind myself to choose the right thing and learn to be a better person. Mic always laugh at me and say: since it is so hard to be human, then be cat lor! Well, God loves me and that's why He created me. So, I must live my life happily and meaningfully. I know I sounded negative tonight.

I just hope that thing could be settled in a much matured way. For me, having cold war can be much more hurting than quarreling or scolding. Is it right to choose to deal with problem in this way? Believe me, I can still be hurt more seriously. I was reminded of my past. Lord, I need you.

CPA

2007-10-26T19:11:00.000+08:00

Quoted from the letter from CPA:
A CPA is an accountant who has integrity and knowledge, is prepared to keep up with change, and is willing to accept challenges.

Today, finally I got my CPA cert. Shall I proceed to be part of Malaysian Institute of Accountant?

Dear Lord, I have complicated feeling. I do not know what will happen next, but I know that you are with me.

8 days mission trip in Segamat

2007-10-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

Today ended the 8 days mission trip which took place at Segamat.

I have a lot to say.

This mission trip indeed meant a lot to me.

1) Serving together with Michael & his fellow bro & sis from his church.

This is my first time joining a mission trip with a group of people whom we previously did not have chance to serve God together.

It is indeed a good chance for me to learn from them.

They are unique and God lead them uniquely too. Amaze~~~

Michael as the team leader -- Good job, dear!

During the 1st day of the mission trip, Mic chaired the 1st meeting. I give thanks to the Lord and amaze of how God had trained Mic into a leader.

2) Rev Lian & wife - perfect match by God. I learned a lot from them.

Rev Lian is a good pastor, whom assisted by a caring and cute wife. Rev Lian love his flocks. He treated them as his own children. He is a Rev blessed by God with all kinds of gifts and talent. He is a prayer warrior. Everything of him, is what he got when he knelt down and pray to God.

Mrs Rev Lian, she looks serious, but she is a very caring and friendly lady. During the very first meal, we talked a lot. Don't be cheated by your first sight impression and don't ever judge the book by its cover.

3) Cuties in Segamat Presbyterian Church - unforgettable.

Esther, Pei Ru, Zhi Pei, Xue Feng, Chen Qing, Raymond, Sheng Long... cuties in Segamat Presbyterian Church. They are marvellous. Praise the Lord for their willingness to serve God. They are with us everyday when we went out for door to door evangelism. They are brave in their age.

4) My very first time of leading Children evangelism gathering.

I put my effort in this gathering. The flow of this event is:

Ice breaking - 15 min
Praise & worship - 30 min
Sketch - 15 min
Altar calling - 15 min
Break for tea - 15 min
Hand craft (Jesus in my heart) - 45min
Present distributing to kids - 15 min

This is my 1st time doing an altar call. Thank God that all the children raised their hand to accept Christ. After the whole event, I felt exhausted.

I can see how God blessed me with gift of handling children. Thank God for filling me with His love as I can pour it out to the children. I really love to be with them.

5) Brought 4 souls to God.

Thank God for the 4 souls. Though I don't know about their future path, but I had done what I supposed, and God shall do the rest.

6) Having discipleship with 2 cuties.

Pei Ru & Zhi Pei. 1 is active 1 is passive, but both are good girl of God. Dear Lord, may you use them and bless them.

7) Scolded by the head of security department due to distributing leaflets in Giant supermarket without their permission.

8) Mic took the trouble to drive me back to JB and then took bus back to KL. (He insisted to do so)

Dear, thanks for your care. I am blessed to have you. I love you.

9) Experiencing God through out the mission trip.

I see how God works when we unite and pray. God leads me and touched me with incidents happened during the Mission Trip. I see how God change the lives when they accepted Christ. Dear Lord, please keep Ivy with you that she will continue to grow and grow in your kingdom.

10) My dedication to God.

Dear Lord, I pray that I can love you more and more, get closer and closer to You, be more like You. Dear Lord, please help me to do the 4 things in order to keep me close to You. Please help me to love You and trust in You more and more.

counting down...

2007-10-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

Today, 04 OCt. Less than 10 days counting down to mission trip in Segamat.

Since I accepted Christ, I have been to many places for mission trip. Let me count.... near to 10 places. And I will be going for another one again.

The place for this round is quite near to me - Segamat. Feeling excited and longing for it. Feeling excited as I have not been joining for mission trip for at least 3 years.

This round, I will be going with Mic's church fellowship. Not really worry of joining them since I already quite familiar with them.

However, I still need to go through some difficult moments before I get myself ready for this mission trip.

Basically, I need to get my job done before I go.

This morning when my staff passed my leave form to my GM on my behalf for his approval, he was hesitated. And later of the day, he sent me an email:

Dear Cynthia, noted that you will be on leave on next week, please update the Q4 forecast by tomorrow.

I was pretty shock when receiving the email. Feeling quite upset of what my GM wrote to me. He is afraid that I will 'throw and run'? Well, I replied him saying:

Dear GM, I will be on leave only in the following week after next week. However, I will try to get it done by tomorrow. Next, fyi, I am currently rushing for reporting to holding company. Don't worry, I will definitely get my duty done before leaving.

Am I sounds bad? Feeling a bit regret of my straight forward-ness.

List of tasks to complete before departing for my 1 week mission trip:

Company
1) Reporting - target: to be done by tomorrow (DONE)
2) Revise Q4 forecast - target: to be done by tomorrow (DONE)
3) BNM approval - target: to be done by next Monday
4) TNB verification - target: to be done by next Monday (DONE)
5) Statistics - target: to be done by next Monday (DONE)
6) Answer tons of questions from Group FC which are still under "to follow up" category in my mail box - answer bit by bit starting tomorrow.
7) Entertain my company's tax agent - target: to be done by next Tuesday (DONE)
8) Forecast cashflow for Oct - target: to be done by next Friday
9) Entertain my company's insurance agent - target: to be done by next Tuesday
10) Review payment - target: to be done by next Friday (DONE)
11) Close 2006 (can delay)

Church
1) Minutes for previous meeting for mission department - target: to be done by this Saturday
2) ppt for Children Sunday School - target: to be done by this Saturday (DONE)
3) Get ready for youth fellowship this Saturday. Will be leading prayer meeting. - target: to be done by this Saturday (DONE)
4) Done up ppt to be used during Sunday Service this coming Sunday - target: to be done by this Saturday (DONE)

Mission trip
1) Get ready materials needed for craft for Sunday School - target: to be done by this Saturday (DONE)

2) Do some shopping and buy some food and drink for mission trip. I am put to in charge in this area. - target: to be done before next Saturday (NO NEED TO DO)

3) Buy a creative tool/think of a creative way to share good news of Christ with kids in Sunday School. - target: to be done by this Saturday (DONE)

Yea, I have a lot of things to do before going for mission trip. Dear Lord, please give me strength and help me to get all these thing done.

Well, I need to sleep now. Have been soaking in tvb series for days. But, can I have just 2 episods for today?

Thank God...

2007-09-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

22 Sept, I went to Sentosa with Mic. This is our 1st time visiting S'pore together, and venture by driving my old Wira.

Yea, can be imagined, we lost our way somewhere in S'pore, turn here turn there, ask this ask that, finally, we able to drive into Sentosa Gateway (thank God)...

We have a sweet time in Sentosa. Basically we visited: 4D Magix, CineBlast, Sentosa Luge, Skyride, Underwater world, Siloso Beach, Flying Terapiz, Meet the Dolphine, and lastly, peep through a restaurant nearby the theater to watch the Songs of the sea musical fountain (can't get the ticket)..

The entrance fees for all are considered expensive. However, I can say that they are having good quality and provide high class entertainment.

After the whole day, we are extremely tired and decided to go back to JB.

This definitely will not be our last time venture in S'pore, especially when we had finally figure out the main highways in S'pore.

We will be there again.

23 Sept, half day in church... extremely tired... my turn to teach in Children Sunday School. I was trying to share gospel with the kids, who knows, when I am still half way (and I have yet to let them do the crafts), a sister came and inform me that the Sunday Service ended earlier. So, kelam-kabutly, I ended the class... bad time planned.

However, after the P&W session, 1 of my close sister in church and also other bro and sis, actually arranged a surprise for me. The kids and some bro and sis celebrated my bday for me... what a surprise!!!!!!!!! Stupid of me, didn't think of that, didn't even suspected... I am really touched when I saw all my beloved student singing bday song for me... Thank God...

At night, my parents, Mic and I attended a wedding dinner. The bridegroom is my friend since primary school, and his mother is my dad's ex-colleague.

When we back home, it is already almost 11pm. When I stepped inside the living room, I saw my niece and maid is still in the living room, but they never on the light. Before I could think of anything, my sister appeared holding a cake... another surprise for me......... again, I was stupidly getting angry coz dear kept sms the whole night and don't let me read what he wrote. So they are actually planning for a surprise. hehe...

In conclusion, it is good to be blurr and stupid sometimes... so that I got the surprises.. haha...

Dear God, thanks for your present.

Darling, thanks for your present too...

Mummy Papa, thanks for bringing me to this world, 27 years ago.

My family, Hui Li & brothers and sisters in church, thanks for celebrating my bday with me...

Mei mei, thanks for your present as well, even though I still haven't seen it.

I love all of you. Muaks...

I am blessed.

Upcoming activities: Segamat Mission Trip 13/10/2007 - 20/10/2007

P/S: Happy birthday to my dear elder sis which falls on 26/9/2007.... I love you..

Approaching....

2007-09-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

Knowing that I won't have time for this coming weekend to blog, I am now sitting here trying to jot something down..

This Sunday is my bday. Yes, I am entering the age of 27. haha... people say, when you start to hide your age, meaning that you are not young anymore. Though I have the courage to reveal my age, but I am still not young.

When I was a teenage, young, meaning to be under 20. However, when I entering the age of 20s, young, meaning to be under 25. Now that I am 27, I start to know that, I am not young anymore.

Today, I got a good news from CPA Australia that my advancement to CPA is now approved. I am now a qualified Accountant.

So, my dream of becoming a CA had come true.

So, turning 27, I just hope that I can be more like Lord Jesus. Hope that I can treat those that I love better. Dears, I know that I am not good enough. Sorry to make u suffer due to my immatured behaviour.

I hope that I can love my church more. Learn to love and care more of all my bro & sis in my church.

I also hope that I can be a good accountant. Do what I supposed and do nothing I am not supposed, well treat my staffs and have good cooperation with my colleagues and bosses.

Lastly, I hope that I can love God more. Lord, help me. Stir my heart O Lord, that I shall live for the purpose that u created me.

27th, a year for me to be more matured.

Darling is coming tomorrow. Can't wait to see him.

Ex-colleague

2007-09-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

It has been a year since I tendered in EY.

Today I attended budget seminar organised by EY. I expected to meet my fellow ex-colleagues in that seminar since it is organised by EY.

My colleague and I arrived at the Persada Johor building at 8:30am sharp. When I just stepped in the hall, I saw few of my ex-colleagues. We have some nice chat and thereafter I proceed to registration counter for registration. The counter is full with familiar faces. Yea, I really miss them.

After got myself registered, I went into the ball room that they rented for the seminar. I saw my favourite ex-manager, Miss Theresa. I really miss her a lot. She greated me gently - she is still the same - a graceful and gentle lady. I talked to her for awhile and moved on.

I met many of my ex-clients. Chatted with them, updating each other. They made me remember my old days when I was still with EY.

I didn't gain much in that seminar frankly as the changes don't really affect my company. However, I am glad that I met the people.

Those old days will never come back.

I miss you: Tai, Theresa, Lee Ling, Boon Lian, Fui Lan, Melvin, Queenie, Mei Ying, Serena and many many...

Living sacrifice

2007-09-16T20:25:00.000+08:00

Today, I stepped out again.

Since I accepted Christ, I have been through so many times of altar call.

Basically there are 3 types of altar call:

1) Call to accept Christ

2) Call to offer ourselves to God and do what He called us to do

3) Call to offer ourselves to God and become a pastor/full time in God's work

I think only for the 1st type of altar call I did not responded. I was not accepted Christ under such a situation.

For 2nd & 3rd type, I both responded. And today, pastor called for the 2nd type of altar call, and I stepped out again.

Stepping out, need brave. But if stepped out for too many times, I will ask myself, is there still a need to re-confirm the commitment to God again?

However, whenever pastor calls, I will surely respond. I just feel uneasy to sit down during an altar call.

Today, the pastor in my church make an altar call. I just know I must step out. I know the culture of my church. They just don't like to let other people knows about their commitment to God. Though many of the church members already offered themselves to God, and they are practicing that in their daily life, but they just don't like to show it out in such a way.

So, I stepped out again, as an encouragement to others.

Frankly, stepping out is not easy, but to be determined in pursuing is even a life long process.

What is God's purpose for you in your life?

In between the lines..

2007-09-10T00:03:00.001+08:00

Today I brought back my 1st diary from my old house. Reading the content in it, find it really interesting. Sometimes when we have grown up, we tend to forget what happened in the past. I am glad that i kept that diary and it become the key of my memory box.

In the diary recorded my life during form 4 & 5. There are few main characters in my life for my that 2 years. They are part of my memory. KT, TM, KK, SW, PL, CZ, YH, CK, CS. Those related, you will know who are these people :P.

Yea, my 1st love story happened during F4. Though we never get started, and I really don't know what you think, but it taught me what is BG love for the very first time. When I talked to KT & TM recently after 10 years, discovered that they all knew of this complicated feeling of me on you. (10 years ago, I still thought that I hide my feeling well, but seems not :)

Haha... I suffered a lot in it. And I even swear that I will never allow myself to have feeling on you anymore. And I advice myself, never fall in love with someone before he shows his interest on me.

And friendship with the rest, yeah, we able to keep in touch till now! We have gathering every year during Chinese New Year. They are my old old friend who have been with me all the while. I don't need to worry that they will betray me coz they will never!

Among them, KT & TM top the ranking.

In one of the passages in my diary stated this line: To KT & TM, I hope that our friendship stays forever. Many many years later, we might still be able to chit chat at coffee shop like what we used to do, or we might bring along our family, and our children might become good friends like us! You 2 are my best friend!

Yea, TM & KT, even though u 2 always blame me for being too busy with my own life and never take initiative to keep in touch, but u 2 definitely occupied a special room in my heart, in which no1 shall ever replace you 2.

Thanks for being my best friend. Are you reading my blog?

The Parable of the Talents (Matthew 25:14-30)

2007-09-05T07:24:00.000+08:00

Jesus often told a story to teach a lesson. Hear the story of the talents.
One day a man was going on a long trip. He needed his servants to take care of his property while he was gone, so he called them to him.

To the first servant he gave five talents of money. (A talent was not a coin, but a weight of a precious metal such as silver, and one talent was worth more than $1,000. So this servant received money worth more than $5,000.)

This man went to work at once using his money until he had doubled it. He now had ten talents instead of five.

The master gave the second man two talents. He probably thought the man was capable of managing that amount of money. The second man was successful also, and doubled his money. He began with more than $2,000 and now he had twice as much.

The third man was not as capable as the other two, but the master gave him one talent with the expectation that he would manage it well. He, too, could have increased his money, but he dug a hole and hid it in the ground.

After a long time the master returned. (Some think the master's trip is a picture of Jesus returning to heaven, and the return from the trip is the judgment of mankind.) He was ready for a report from the servants.

The man who had received five talents brought his money and showed the master that he had doubled it. He was happy to show his master the results.

The master was well pleased. He said, "Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!"

The man that had been given two talents showed the master that he had also doubled his money. He received the same words of praise as the first man who had received ten talents.

The man who had received one talent dug up the talent he had buried and brought it to the master. He accused the master of being a hard man to work for, said he had been afraid, so he just buried his talent. He gave it back to the master saying, "See, here is what belongs to you."

The master was very angry with him and called him a wicked, lazy servant. He said the man should have at least put the money with bankers and received some interest. (Now the Jews could not charge nor receive interest from a fellow Jew, but they could get interest from a person who was not a Jew.)

The master took his one talent away from him and gave it to the man who had ten talents, and the one talent man was punished because he had not properly used the talent he had been given.

What can we learn from this story? We need to use whatever "talent" God has given us. It might be money, ability, or opportunity. If we use it wisely, He will increase it so that our lives will glorify Him.

Memory Verse
For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. ~Matthew 25:29

The Parable of the Ten Virgins (Matthew 25:1-13)

2007-09-04T07:23:00.000+08:00

One day Jesus told a story about a wedding feast. Let's learn something about Jewish traditions before we hear the story.

The Jewish marriage took place in three stages over a long period of time. When the couple was still very young, an Engagement was arranged by the parents, sometimes with the help of a "matchmaker".

Second, there was a Betrothal ceremony held at the bride's house. The couple exchanged vows and the groom gave the bride presents. This period lasted for a year or two, but the bride continued to live with her parents. During this time the bride was said to be "betrothed" or "espoused" to the young man.

The Marriage Supper came next. It usually happened at night. The groom and his friends came to the bride's house. She would be wearing a thick veil. She and her friends would accompany the groom and his friends to his father's house or maybe a larger hall where the festivities would take place. A contract was signed. The bride and groom would spend time together, then the bride would remain by herself for seven days. At the end of the week, the bride would return to the group, remove her veil so that everyone could see her. If the young woman had never been married, the feast would last for seven days. If she were a widow remarrying, it would last for three days.

In the story Jesus told, the ten virgins were waiting for the bridegroom to come. Possibly they were already at the hall where the bridegroom was bringing his bride. It was nighttime and they all had lamps with oil in them, and the lamps were burning brightly.

They waited and waited. Still the wedding party had not arrived. As it got later, they began to get drowsy, and one by one they fell asleep.

Then they heard someone calling, "Here's the bridegroom! Come out to meet him." They began to get up, but some of the lamps began to go out. The oil had burned away, and the flames were getting smaller and smaller. Then the lamps were dark.

Five of the girls were prepared for just such an event. They had planned ahead and anticipated the delay. They had extra oil to add to their lamps. They were wise to make this preparation.
The five foolish girls had no extra oil. They wanted to borrow some from the wise girls, but they refused. They said there might not be enough for all of them. They urged the girls to go and buy some oil from someone who had it for sale. The girls left to go find a merchant who would sell them oil.

While they were gone, the bridegroom arrived and the five wise girls and the rest of the wedding party went inside. The door was shut.

The five foolish girls came back. They shouted for someone to open the door for them, but sadly there was no way for them to enter. The bridegroom replied, "I tell you the truth. I don't know you."

There are many ideas about the meaning of this parable. But one idea seems to be very clear; we need to live our lives in such a way that we are always ready for the Lord's return or for the end of our lives.

Memory Verse
You also must be ready because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him. ~Luke 12:40 (NIV)

Cameron Highland

2007-09-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

For the past weekend, I visited Cameron Highland. This is not the first time I go to Cameron and in fact I had been there for multiple times. I have relatives staying in Cameron and I used to follow my parents visiting them during my childhood and teenage, once a year.

Cameron Highland is a good place for relaxing, but visiting Cameron Highland during peak period don't seems to be a good choice. We took 6 hours to reach Cameron Highland due to heavy traffic everywhere. But it is fun to be with them - Mic's church friends.

This is a 2-days-1-night trip and hence every hour is prescious to us. When we just arrived at Cameron, it was raining. So we ended up staying at Hostel and only manage to go for a walk at night.

Guess where we went? We went to visit Pasar Malam at Tanah Rata.

Yea.. most of the stalls sell vege, fruits, corns, sweet potatoes, souvenirs, flowers.

Mic bought me flowers.

I love these pinky roses. Though Mic suggested me to take roses for different colour, but when I see them, I knew that I will only choose them. I like the colour. Isn't it nice?

Another shot

I know myself. When I have fond of certain thing, I will go for it. Just like how I choose the roses. Though someone else could have bought cheaper roses, or more colourful roses, I will just feel contented of having them.

The next day, we visited Tea farm, Animal farm(?? Mostly consist of dead insect and some ordinary animal!!), Strawberry farm and Cactus farm. I took quite some pictures in tea farm.

In cactus farm

In strawberry farm.

This is a fun trip. Make me feel want to go again.

Upcoming activity: My birthday 23/09/2007

Car accident

2007-08-25T15:51:00.000+08:00

Today supposed to be the day I spend my time with my fellow youth in my church for an outing. However, I met with an accident on the way to church and I ended up not able to join the group.

I know it is my fault frankly... I drove too fast as I was late... the driver of the other car is also wrong as he did not give signal when turning right. I bang on his car and the front right side of my car damage. Don't feel want to put a photo of my car... really feel heart break when seeing its awful look.

This taught me a lesson... ever since I drive a car, this is the 6th time I met with car accident, and of course, this shall be the most serious 1... Thank God that the driver of the other car is a nice person and he did not ask me to compensate him as he is also wrong... but his car also not so seriously damage like my car...

I know that I always like to drive fast... I just can't stand of driving slow... I know myself... I must change the way I drive a car... if not, i might risk my life...

Mic is very worry of the way I drive a car... He keep on nagging at me when he knew that I met with a car accident again...

I know that God is really protecting me all the while... if not, I will not be here anymore...

Dear Lord, I learned my lesson...

I must learn to drive slow.

Day 16 - What matters most

2007-08-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

"The importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them. The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you. If you want to know a person's priorities, just look at how they use their time.

Time is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money, but you can't make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time."

~Quoted from [The Purpose Driven Life] by Rick Warren.

How you spend your time? With TV? With computer? With your work? Sleeping? Is it worthwhile that you share your life with them?

Good point to ponder...

Pray...

2007-08-06T19:34:00.000+08:00

Do you know that there are some blessing that God has already reserve or prepare for you, and you will got it when you ask for it?

Love Malaysia

2007-08-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

How to love our country, Malaysia?
1) Know more about Malaysia: History and current news. Care about the surrounding.
2) Love our resources: Do not waste our resources.
3) Love our neighbour: no prejudice and discrimination against other races.
4) Love ourselves: Love ourselves and grow up in the love of God, so that we can contribute to the society.

Need YOU(you) in my life

2007-07-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

Mic is in Japan now for training. Really miss his voice.. He couldn't call me coz it needs 3G phone in Japan in order to get access to their phone line.

Feel glad that mic actually sent e-mails to me just now. Thank God, He just know what I need.

Take care dear... waiting for your return.

Trip of love

2007-07-08T16:41:00.000+08:00

Home sweet home~~~~

Finally I am at home.. It is so comfortable to be at home. Still remember during my university time, I always don't mind where I go. No matter in what kind of situation, I also can rested well... But since I back home after graduated, I find that the only place that I can rested well is at home. Everytime when I lie on bed, I will immediately fall asleep when you count from 1 to 5.

Ok, back to topic...

During the past weekend, I attended Kwai's wedding in Kluang. It was also our CCF reunion 2. The 1st CCF Reunion was last year and it had been a year after I last met with all my fellow CCFers.

This trip is really a memorable one. Here I summarised the trip in 3 areas.

With them

"Them" refers to brothers and sisters in CCF. They occupied a special area in my heart. Really, no other people understand me spiritually better than them. They are those who accompany me for years since I accepted Christ.

Even though I don't really have heart to heart talk with some of them, it is still great to see them, and get to know that they are well following our Father in heaven. Kwai married, wx found his life partner, LC become teacher, the rest - lui, LY, kelvin, Mat & Flo.. LY baptised this morning, Kelvin.. haha.. my this old friend seems thousand of years just like a day, a day is like thousands of years.. never changed.. :P... lui & LC, always got a lot to share.. hehe..Mat & Flo, very loving couple!

Kwai's wedding is so touching. From the whole ceremony, I felt so touch seeing their love.. I knew that Vivian is a great lady. It is really a blessing for Kwai to meet her and fell in love with her. I can tell that Vivian is matured spiritually and mentally. Being single is happiness, getting married is becoming matured. Both being single and married are blessing from God. No matter in what situation, give thanks to the Lord and enjoy in the arrangement of God.

Kwai, all the best for you and Vivian!

And wx, glad that you had found xj. You 2 are just so match. God really sayang you and blessed you with xj. Thanks for all your sharing and thanks for being a good child of God. Your relationship with God is so close and it encourages me! I must also jia you and become a good girl of God.

With him
Him, refers to Mic. In this trip, it would not be this enjoyable without him.

Darling, thanks for being my driver.. fetching me around. Thanks for always taking care of me, accompany me and adore me.

Sorry dear for my short coming and thanks for bearing with me for my weakpoints. Thanks for loving me. I know that I still need to improve myself so that you don't have to suffer because of me. "Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs" (Proverbs 10:12). It touches my heart of your words.. "It is hard for me to change you, but I will learn to accept your weakpoints."

I always feel so amaze seeing how God match His people. From my relationship with Mic, I just can see some of my hidden shortcoming when no other people actually informing me of it. I remembered Kamfa's word: God purposely created those people, just in order to shape you. Thank God that I am belongs to God.

With HIM
"HIM", of course refers to my one and only heavenly Father who had been loving me dearly.

Father, thanks for loving me. There is no word to express myself and I am really blessed to have you staying in my heart.

Dear Father, thanks for always telling me that I am your beloved by putting those people and incidents around me in my life, just to convince me to trust you and love you whole heartedly.

Father, I know that I am still not a very good girl, but I am willing to learn to be your good girl. I know what I supposed to do. I know what you want Lord. Father, I will learn.

Thank God for the trip!

Upcoming activity: Cameron trip -- 30/08/2007

Visit to KL

2007-07-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

It was a loooong weekend!

Today supposingly should be a working day, but I am at home! The reason why is because, today is the replacement holiday for wesak day that my company did not off two months back.

For the past weekend, I went to KL. My last formal visit to KL was half year ago. Last month I went to KL too, but only for half a day and I did not manage to go anywhere due to time constraint.

I went to KL by Air Asia for only RM41.99. Mic came to pick me up at LCCT airport and we went for a walk in MMU as Mic said MMU has added on some new facility.

Swimming pool and racing track!! Too bad it was only built after we graduated... Last time when we want to swim, we have to go to apartment cyberia next to MMU or some of the students even went to UPM for swimming. By now, finally the student can enjoy the swimming pool and the track.

After visiting MMU, we went to KL town for a walk. Guess where we went?

Not the 1st time we go, but is the 1st time we go with camera. So, sure must take some photo.

The next day, Sunday, I felt pretty excited early in the morning, as I know I will be meeting with my beloved pastors. Miss them so much. Our last meeting was half year ago and it had been long time I did not talked to them and only update each other through blogs.

Pastors planted a new church in Serdang area, named 以勒基督教会/Jireh Christian Church.

They were so surprised to see us and this is what I want too.. hehe... spot check!!!

Thank God for taking care of both of them. They are well and healthy both physically and also spiritually.

Pastor Ian giving sermon, Pastor Kelly for sure is the chair person. But too bad I forgot to take photo during the praise and worship.

It will still be a long way to go for the church to expand. And I know, since God called them for building up the church, for sure He will be responsible for it. Jia you Pastors!!! You will have my full support all the way.

After the exciting 2 days trip in KL, I am now back to JB. Thank God for His protection.

Upcoming activity: Kwai's wedding -- 7/7/2007 (CCF Reunion 2)

I am glad

2007-06-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

There might have time when we quarrels, with different opinion, angry with each other, cold war, criticised each other for weakpoints, but...

I am really glad that, you are there along with me, pray for me, loving me, caring me, always have me in your mind.

Dear, even though there will still be hard time, but I know, God will always taking care of me, and you will always walk with me through thick and thin.

Thanks, darling...

Somewhere out there

2007-06-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

Written by James Horner, Barry Mann, Cynthia Weil

Somewhere out there,

Beneath the pale moonlight,

Someone's thinking of me,

And loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,

Someone's saying a prayer,

That we'll find one another,

In that big somewhere out there.

And even though I know how very far apart we are,

It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star,

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,

It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky!

Somewhere out there,

If love can see us through,

Then we'll be together,

Somewhere out there,

Out where dreams

Come true...

P/S: Dear, specially dedicate this song to you. Sorry for the burden caused by me and thanks for all your effort. I love you.

Chloe, my niece

2007-06-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

Church camp 2007 - Logos Presbyterian

2007-06-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

For the past 3 days, I joined Logos Presbyterian Church Camp which took place at Alor Gajah. Due to time constraint and for conveniences, I drove to Alor Gajah from Johor Bahru. The whole trip took me 2 ½ hours and this is the 1st time I drove out from Johor area alone using my 10 years old wira.

This was picture I took while I was driving. So daring is it? It is really bored driving alone but my feeling at the moment is really excited. I just can't wait to see Mic after seperated with him since last meeting during 1st May and I even drove up to 140km/h.

I did not take much picture of the camp site, but it is really a fantastic and wonderful place. You will feel extremely relax with the greenery surrounding which you will never be able to see in the city. This small hut in the picture is one of the chalet in the camp site.

The reason why this camp is really enjoyable and relaxing, partly because I am totally taking part in this camp as a "member" rather than "committee + member". I don't mean I hate to serve, but as someone who always need to serve, it is good to be lazy sometimes. hehe...

In this camp, Mic is so busy all the time. He has to be song leader, game leader, back up singer and all the time a supportive member. This is also part of the reason which make this camp a memorable one for me. It is really happy to see him busy serving and in-charge in so many area. I feel so praud of being his girl friend.. hehe..

I can see the transition in him. I see how God changed him from a shy and introvert person to who he is now. I knew that he has changed, but I did not notice of these great changes until I see it. When I saw him leading in front of people, with confidence and without any fear, controlling the whole event, I just couldn’t help but admiring him. Admiring him for all his hard work and the willingness to serve the Lord, and thank God for changing him.

These 3 pictures taken while we go for some adventurous activity in the camp site. From these pictures can see how playful Mic can be sometimes. I dare not climb the robe as it seems so scary due to its height from ground and also the length of the robe. I tried for a not so scary one during the 1st day of the camp during the jungle tracking.

The jungle tracking was really fun. I never walk in the jungle, with the bush and plant, tree and insect around me. There is no proper route for me to walk on and there is some part of the journey which require me to squat down so that I won't trip on my step or roll till the end of the track due to the slipery and steepness of the route.

During the 2nd night, we had camp fire. The last time I saw a camp fire was during my primary school. So, this is also very interesting for me. We dance around the fire crazily and frankly speaking, I never been to a camp which had jungle tracking and camp fire as their activity.

Happy moment passes fast. The 3 days camp ended. Looking forward for the next family camp after 2 years. By the time, can I join the camp with different role?

我当姨姨了！！！

2007-05-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

我当姨姨了！！！

刚从Penang回来。探望了我的姐姐、姐夫及他们刚出世的宝宝，Chloe。我的小外甥可爱到不得了！！！可惜短期内没有照片展示给大家欣赏。因为没有带相机去。

我想，这是我第一次抱新生儿了。小宝宝身体还是软软的。抱得我手忙脚乱。小Chloe对我这个姨姨还真是严格。每当我接手抱她时，她便会开始皱眉头。我想，我真的很不会抱她咧，一定搞得她不舒服。结果，才两三分钟的工夫，她便开声抗议了。我想，我的“抱功”还有待加强。

主啊，求祢看顾小Chloe，让她在主祢的爱中茁壮成长，并一生被主祢来得着。

丰盛

2007-05-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

我是属于上帝的。对，没错，我是属于上帝的。

每当我面对问题，我都应当晓得，我只能在基督里寻得答案。

再多的人赞赏我都好，只有天父的肯定能让我得到满足。

所以，欣薇啊，妳还要逃吗？逃到那里去呢？还要靠自己吗？妳有得胜的能力吗？没有上帝，没有盼望，不要上帝，是自逃苦吃。妳不读经，不祷告，能活吗？

是的，不能。我不能够靠自己得胜。我不能够没有上帝。没有上帝的生命，没有方向，没有目标。是的，我的船，需要上帝来掌舵。我没有能力单独上路。

主啊，我不要自己孤单一人。我需要祢。我不要别人的肯定，我只要祢的喜悦。我不要世界，我只要在祢里面得着满足。

因祢告诉我：我来是要叫人得生命，并且得的更丰盛。

丰盛的人生，只在基督里。

主啊，感谢祢。。。

查账

2007-05-19T12:34:00.000+08:00

很受不了做账做到账不balance的人。这是非常不负责任的行为。你做到不balance是要我一条一条check，然后帮你做到balance吗？不要告诉我你不知道为什么不balance，或是你不会做。做账讲的是耐心，不是技巧。若是不balance，就check到给它balance啦！我也没有什么快速的方法能很快地将你的错处找出来。也不就是一条一条的查？请各位，如果你是做账的，千万不要做到不balance然后丢给别人查。这是非常不负责任的。

（很pek chek。今早查了两个不balance的账，check到冒火。）

not ok

2007-05-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

最近，很不行。感觉怪怪的。

自从Manager走后，我感觉到公司不一样了。以往，我可以说是躲在Manager的身影之后，可自她离开公司以后，一切都不再一样。

我必须应付许多的人与事。我知道，如果是我的Manager来处理的话，也许她两三下便搞定，事情也不会演变成今天的局面。我想，我是太在乎别人对我的看法了。很累，真的很累。这几天加班的结果都是听同事诉苦。工作还是堆积如山。今天一整天更是离谱。根本在工作时间没有做到任何东西。只是说了一整天的话。“处理人事”。。人事真的需要“处理”吗？

我不断问自己，是否已将天父摆在一旁。我在乎别人的眼光和接纳，更过于天父的眼光和赞同。有没有搞错？我可有被“同化”了？别人说lucky，我跟着赞同，当然圣灵马上责备了我。欣薇，你知道你是谁吗？你是属上帝的，不是属世界的！

很难啊！真的好难。将信仰生活化，我有做到吗？今天晚上我召开的主日学训练会，我忘得一干二净。有没有搞错？我真的很不掂。

我在干什么？

教会的事奉也是不大对劲。被责任压着？不应该是这样吧？应该是为上帝而做，凭爱心与弟兄姐妹同工。事奉的原因竟然是“没办法”？

真的，很有问题。

怀念

2007-05-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

也许是在家住久了，很怀念读大学的日子。请别误会，我其实非常喜欢住在家里，只是，很怀念念大学的时光。

我的灯需要油!!!

2007-05-06T16:41:00.000+08:00

你总觉得自己身处在几股拉力当中，公司、家庭、教会。。。。。。都要求你全力以赴。而你只有一个身体，不能分成两个、三个，或更多。你每天也只有24小时，不能背增为48、64，或更多。大家都以期盼的眼神望着你，说：“没有你不行。”你只好不断付出、付出、付出 -- 好像一盏油灯，不断燃烧，却忘了添油。

当你发现自己快“不行”了，最先考虑放下的，会是什么？好好想一想 -- 使你“燃尽”了，“害”你家庭出问题的，是五至六天的超时工作，还是周末、主日在教会的part-time“侍奉”？

～～以上取自《文桥》１０１期。值得深思。。。

people come, people go.

2007-05-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

距离上一次的post，已经有一个月。为什么那么久都没有post？不为什么，只因为我家的电话线出了问题。今天终于修好了，马上忍不住on了几个小时的internet。

上个月发生了一件大事。我的顶头上司辞职了。原本有好多话想要说，可是写到这里却无话。。

到今天为止，她离开公司已有四天时间了。每当我必须做决定时，我就会很想念她。想念她给我的教导与栽培。虽然过程非常之难忘，可是，严师出高徒，她只想让我成长。

在她在公司的剩下几天，我们聊了很多。更分享了我们的信仰。她是一位爱主的姐妹。感谢主让我认识了她，让我从她身上看见了正直。更让我看见她对罪的绝不妥协。

前面的路，我要加油地走下去。她离开前对我说：我所做的，你可以放心去做，我所没有做的，你千万不要尝试去做。这是她给我的最后劝勉。

今天是3rd working day，我刚刚赶完我的account closing。主啊，我知道我还有袮。

回忆

2007-04-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

在一位朋友的网上看见她提及香味所钩起的回忆。其实，我也有同感。以前在幼儿时期，我有一位照顾我的褓母。当时她所使用的肥皂粉的味道，直到如今仍在我的回忆中。曾几何时，我对一位我所衷情的男生的味道是那样的敏感。还记得有一次我闻到了他独有的味道，一转身，果然不出所料地看见了他。呵呵。。。想起来真好笑。

除了味道以外，我想，熟悉的音乐也会将人带回历史中。有时听到了某一首歌，便跌入时光隧道。好像就回到了某个时刻。

人的回忆越来越多，是成长的象征。欣薇，忘记背后，努力面前。别怀念从前，要把握现在，展望未来。以往的回忆固然难忘，前面的路更加精彩。加油！

不对劲

2007-04-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

今天很不对劲。真的很不对劲。一整天都显显的。我的忧郁症又犯了。

很纳闷，很无奈。这就是属肉体的基督徒的表现。

太不对劲，就开始怪这怪那。其实是自己的问题。不关别人的事。

女人，真是奇怪。连我都搞不清楚状况。

欣薇，唯有主耶稣能填补你心灵的空虚。

逼迫

2007-04-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

今天受难日的崇拜回答了我昨天的疑问。当主耶稣在十字架上受尽侮辱时，祂选择原谅，更为将祂钉在十字架上的人们祷告，求天父赦免他们的过犯。这就是我们的主。祂并没有怨恨，更没有诅咒，只有满满的爱。所以，要为逼迫你的人祷告，只要祝福，不可诅咒。这就是上帝要我学习的功课。

人事

2007-04-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

一晃眼就到四月！如果在今年有什么大计划，就只剩下大半年的时间来完成了。还记得在去年年尾时，我在教会的祷告会中分享了自己在今年的展望。因为当时的我刚刚换工作，只想新工作快些上手，结果，就这样，一转眼就过了四个月。

在这分新工作，有时真的很无奈。尤其是我的一位同事尤其古怪。就拿今天来说，我因一时糊涂，忘了她已经将一份报告交给我，而又像她要，她便破口大骂：“哇！你来了那么多个月，为什么还是这样的？”也许我写出来，感觉还不够震撼，可请大家想像一下，用不算小的声音“喊”出这翻话的威力是如何的。

有时候真的很纳闷。每当她迟给我报告或是她一时粗心报告有错，我绝对不会出言讽刺。可是，只要我稍微糊涂一些，或是我的报告要让她稍微等以下，她就会很不给面子的，当着我下属的面责问我。就拿今天来说，我因为要出席我朋友父亲的葬礼而必须在七点就离开公司，可是我还等着她的报告，我就问她，大约什么时候会完成。谁知道她很不耐烦的对我喊到：“你自己来做啦！”每当我让她等，我都会不好意思地向她道歉，可是，对她来说，我等她是天经地义的事，她等我就在浪费她宝贵的时间。什么态度嘛！

唉，真是一种米养百种人，更何况有那么多种米。我真的很可怜她的下属，怎么会受得了她那古怪的脾气。她的直系下属才进公司不久，就领教过她那奇怪的脾气。很可怜。不晓得她能忍受多久。

还有一件很古怪的事，就是，她已经有两次口口声声说有对我说了一些话，可是我竟没有听到！！就那今天来说。Manager问她有没有告诉我，我的下属的报告有问题，她面不改色的说：有！可是，真的，我真的没有听到她有说过。

唉，我真的怕了她。。。。

明天是耶稣受难日，我竟然还怨声连连。求主原谅，我还是学不到主的1%的功力。如果主耶稣在的话，祂会如何看待这件事呢？求主帮助我。

月底结帐

2007-04-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

今天是第三个工作天，我必须将上个月的account close了。终于，我成功了。

觉得很难带领好整个account department。上司说，等closing完了要从长计议。

四年

2007-04-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

今天，四月二日，是什么日子呢？是我与钦在一起的四周年纪念日。以往总是迫不及待地想用时间来证明我俩的感情，而如今，四年的日子，一转眼就过去了。也不过如此。

所以，有什么要说吗？嗯。。。无话可说。。总之，加油啦！

认真的。。。

2007-04-01T19:58:00.001+08:00

刚刚才写完上一篇，意悠未尽，又再写上一篇。

从小我都很喜欢写下自己的心情点滴，长大过后也不例外。

我的人怪怪的，老是很容易的就欣赏身边的异性。就算已经心有所属了，还是不安定！我特别容易对认真的男人倾心。真的，不骗你！我最不欣赏那种做事不认真，随随便便，马马虎虎的男生了！所以，每当我见到认真的男性，我就不自觉的欣赏起他来。

感谢主，钦做起事来特别认真，从不马虎了事，交代了他的东西，他必定尽上百分百的努力将它完成。所以，我当然是非常，且绝对的欣赏他了！感谢主，赐给我一位优秀的他。

洗礼

2007-04-01T19:57:00.000+08:00

今天在主日崇拜中有很深的感触。所以，如今虽然我的人回到了公司加班，我的心却是不安定的！

今天在我的教会中有九位弟兄姐妹接受洗礼。这是第一次在我们自己的教会中举行洗礼。以前的洗礼，我们都会联合我们在哥打的姐妹会~哥打伯大尼教会，一同联合举行洗礼仪式，而地点则在哥打伯大尼教会的一位会友的家。

而这一次，我们的教会自己买了洗礼池，在自家教会中洗礼！我也非常荣幸地，有份在金钱上奉献于购买这一个洗礼池。对我来说，能够奉献购买洗礼池的意义太大了！试问，一间教会会有多少次的机会购买洗礼池呢？

今天，每一个会友都分外开心，因是自家的喜事！就好像家庭里添了宝宝一样。太开心了！以往的洗礼仪式就没有这般的感觉，因为到来观礼的人不多，场面就较没有归属感。

所以，今天是我们教会历史性的一刻，感谢主！

呵呵。。。

2007-03-31T23:04:00.000+08:00

不行啊！！

奇怪的开头。。

今天，在我的教会举办了一个讲座会。邀请到博爱学生事工的同工来分享有关黑社会的课题。

邀请到的这位同工是以前曾经堕落，沉沦过的。他用他宝贵的经历来劝勉青少年们千万不可误入歧途。

由于我在教会是负责操纵电脑及投影的，我时常都能够与外来讲员，传道及牧师们配搭事奉。

能够与这些外来讲员，传道及牧师们配搭事奉，是我的荣幸。呵呵。。。好像有点那个。。呵呵。。

今天这位讲员，别以为他曾经在黑社会中打滚过，他的长像必定凶神恶煞。其实，他长得还挺帅的！

所以，为什么我今天的开场白会是“不行啊！”因为他真的是帅到不行啊！

呵呵。。。我是太夸张了。。。

要是钦会看中文，我一定完蛋。。。呵呵。。。

好啦，傻笑完毕，得赶工了。。。一堆的工作等着我去完成。。。

恩赐

2007-03-25T15:22:00.000+08:00

自从黄传道师母离开我们的教会，回了他们的家乡后，先后有两为牧者到我的教会协助我们，一位是王牧师，一位则是王传道。王传道是来接续王牧师的（他们也在同一间教会服事主）。原因是王牧师到了上海进行培训事工。王牧师是一位非常有生命见证的牧师。虽然他所讲的道，来来去去都是爱心，见证，读经，祷告，可是，他为我们所付出的，及所委身的，我们大家都看得到的。他是我们以前的一位牧者，他的一家人在几年前去了美国牧养当地的中国人。他的妻子是一位很有讲道恩赐的牧师，儿子也是一名传道人。我想，他那十几岁的女儿，以后长大了，必也会加入他们的行列。牧师家庭。感谢主！

今天王传道对我们讲了一篇舍己的道。虽然明显地看出他非常的紧张，频频地看稿，又一直吃锣噝，可是他所讲的道却提醒了我，要为主而活！以前的我非常介意台上的讲员是否讲得好，可是因王牧师的缘故，我竟惊觉，上帝使用一个人，不一定会给他大家认为他该有的恩赐，而是，当上帝要使用一个人，不管他有没有恩赐，他的生命仍能影响他身边的人。至少，王牧师就成功地掳获了不少弟兄姐妹的心，更激励了不少人要积极地事奉，多读经，多祷告，多关怀身边的人。

所以，不求什么，只求主来使用。。

时间

2007-03-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

时间过得太快了！一转眼已是近四月了。又到了一个月的月尾时分，又将面临下一次的account closing。

就是因为有时间这样东西，让我更向往永生。那天在聊天中，我与父母正感叹着时光飞逝。我对父母分享了我永生的盼望。更对他们说了我渴望他们也信主，那我们就能一同在永生里永远在一起。父母都觉得没有永生的可能。我只能对他们说：是有的！主啊，求祢怜悯我的父母，让他们早日归向祢。真的很想大声的对每一位不认识主的朋友们说：是有永生的！是有的！信耶稣的人有永生啊！

我的人很奇怪。有时候想法会悲悲的，却又享受那自怜的感觉。最近都没有机会与钦见面。好像很想他，有时又不怎想他。也许太过习惯一个人的生活了。如果他在我的身边，也许我就没时间好好独处了。有种很想马上见他的冲动。可是理智告诉我，不可能。前些时候真的很想到KL去工作。因为厌倦了与钦分开的日子。可是当我知道现在不是时候，想去的心就安定下来了。也非常的享受与父母相处的日子。真的，如果让我再选，我依然会选择留下。

凡事都有定期，天下万务都有定时。生有时，死有时。栽种有时，拔出所栽种的也有时。杀戮有时，医治有时。拆毁有时，建造有时。哭有时，笑有时。哀恸有时，跳舞有时。抛掷石头有时，堆聚石头有时。怀抱有时，不怀抱有时。寻找有时，失落有时。保守有时，舍弃有时。撕裂有时，缝补有时。静默有时，言语有时。喜爱有时，恨恶有时。争战有时，和好有时。这样看来，作事的人在他的劳碌上有什么益处呢？我见神叫世人劳苦，使他们在其中受经练。神造万物，各按其时成为美好。又将永生安置在世人心里。然而神从始至终的作为，人不能参透。

传道书的作者真的太有智慧了。每一件事都有它的时间。急不来啊！很多时候都会很着急的想要知道结果，想要进入下一阶段。可是，如果我们知道每一个阶段都有它的时间，那么，也许我们就能活得从容些，也更加懂得享受每一个过程。所以，务必要忍耐啊！

confirmed...

2007-03-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

今天从经理手中拿到了我的confirmation letter。有一些安慰。。感谢主。。虽然嘴里还是说这是我应得的。

不知不觉间，已过了三个月。有没有改善呢？嗯。。还好啦！与同事间相处融洽，不过要懂得拿捏好与下属们的关系。要不然，全都爬上我的头了！人太好了。没办法。。

前面的道路求主引领。。

他的。。。

2007-03-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

我是在我七岁时与我的家人们一同接受主基督为我个人救主及生命的主。当我渐渐长大时，我也和我的家人一样，并不是一个很认真追求灵里长进的基督徒，而对当时的我来说，全职事奉是遥远的，是与我无关的。

以前的我性格较为内向害羞且对自己没有信心。在同龄的朋友当中，我往往都不及他们来得聪明。我常常想，我应该不会有一番太大的作为。所以，每当我看见牧师们站在讲台上证道，我便感到羡慕不已。我暗地里甚至希望我能好像他们一样能够那样的服侍上帝。可是，缺乏自信却让我不敢有非份只想。

在我还没踏入大学门槛前，有一回我参与了由唐崇荣牧师所主办的一个为期数天的讲座会。每每在聚会接近尾声时，唐牧师都会对我们作出呼召，呼召人全时间服事神或成为传道人。每当唐牧师开始呼召人成为全职传道人时，我的心中都会激动并涌起一股强烈地感动。我知道虽然我的人还没有作出决定，可我的心却已想要举手回应成为传道人。当时我的顾虑是：1) 我觉得自己不够好，神会用我吗？2) 我明白我唯一的父亲是希望我能好像一般人一般能够闯出一番事业来。在挣扎中，我向上帝祷告，求主帮助我能够有勇气回应我心中的感动。而经过了几天的讲座会，我终于勇敢地举起手回应了我内心的感动。

在进入大学之后，上帝带领我参与了大学团契的服事。更赋予我机会和能力成为领导者。虽然我因没有信心而依然感到害怕，可是我不断地提醒我自己，信心不是自己给自己的，而是建立在上帝的话语并祂身上。一路走来，我见到上帝藉着许多人和事改变我，让我从惧怕及担心中退变成为一个倚靠上帝的人。如今我的心依然想要成为一名传道人，可我还不确定上帝呼召我事奉的领域。也许，可能是到异乡的国土呢也说不定。

我的。。。

2007-03-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

我是在2000年，在大学一年级时接受主基督为我个人救主及生命的主。犹记得在我信主大约一年后，我参加了一个由卫理公会所主办的青专营。那并不是我第一次参加营会，可却是我第一次只身单影地去参加。那一次的营会对我来说虽已印象模糊，但我却不能忘记牧师在其中一个晚上的信息分享。他以解经的方式为我们讲解了以赛亚书第6章。而在结束时，就好像其他一般的营会，他对我们作出了呼召。我老早在前几晚便已打定主意，绝对不在一时冲动下，在牧师呼召人成为传道人时举手。可是，当牧师开始呼召时，我的心中竟涌起了强烈的感动。当时我心中非常的挣扎。一方面想着献身的种种后果，一方面又按捺不住心中的感动。就在这时候，耳边响起了牧师的声音。他说：“不要怕，只要信，只要你愿意，上帝一定会使用你。”就在那一刹那，我回应了主说：主啊，我什么都不会，什么也不行，但是，我愿意被主来使用我！

老实说，当聚会到了尾声，我感到担心和害怕。我开始担心自己是否作错了决定。当时我的顾虑是：1) 担心自己没有能力；2) 家人还没信主。于是我去找牧师谈。当时牧师为我祷告，为我求天父1) 赐我我所需要的恩赐； 2) 为我预备同工；3)为我的家人的救恩祷告。

终于，营会结束了，我也回到了现实生活中。当时的我仍觉得，我并没有成为传道人的能力。可是，一路走来，我却看见了上帝在各个方面的带领及预备。主让我在大学团契中学习事奉祂，也赐我恩赐让我有能力在不同的岗位上事奉祂。我在大学团契中，灵命在长辈们的带领下不断地成长。而上帝也巧妙地带领了我的姐姐和妹妹归向了祂。再有，主真的为我预备了同工。

而如今，我已离开了大学团契，到了社会上，进入人群中。这对我来说，又是另一方面的学习。我开始在教会中参与各项的事奉，也接受了不少的装备。我对自己说，我要好好预备我自己，好让主来使用我！我的心仍然想要成为一名传道人，可我还不明确地知道上帝呼召我事奉的领域。我依然在等候上帝明确地呼召我。我清楚晓得，上帝必定会在祂的时间让我晓得，祂对我生命的呼召。有一句话将不断地提醒并勉励我：保守圣洁，为主使用！

还好。。。

2007-03-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

今天在工作上，我犯了一个失误。有一笔非常重要的款项必须要在今天转入另一户口。我竟然不晓得银行cut off的时间。cut off的意思就是，若是过了那个指定的时间，银行就会在另一天才process你所给的指示。可爱的我，竟然不晓得银行在两点半cut off。结果，当我的同事接到我的指示而到银行去时，已过了指定的时间。

照常理来讲，若我不打电话到银行去查问，我将不晓得我所给的指示并没有被处理，可是，感谢主，因为其它的缘故，我打了一通电话到银行，并得知我的失误！当我知道时，我急得满头汗。如果那笔款项不在今天被转入另一个户口，我将害公司蒙受损失。我便开始求那个banker帮我。终于，那个banker答应帮我将我的申请向KL总公司报告，可是，还不确定是否我的申请将被接受。那个banker要我在半小时后才打电话向她确认结果。

当我将电话挂上后，我真的还是很担心。我将这件事告诉了我的同事们，并半开玩笑地请她们为我祷告。当然我是真的很迫切地求主帮助我啦！

终于，半小时过去了，我再次打电话到银行确认，那个banker给了我一个让我安心的答案。是的，我的申请通过了。感谢主！这是我第一个念头。过后，我也将这件事与同事们分享。

这就是我在工作上如何经历上帝的恩典与眷顾。其实，上帝不止一次地帮助我了。每一天都可以看到上帝给我的恩典。对我来说，每一个“还好”或是“幸好”，都是主的看顾。所以，我的“还好”及“幸好”的后面，总是接着“感谢主”！

主啊，我早知道，这条路上有了祢的陪伴，我真的不需要担心。真的，一无挂虑。

感谢主！

我的生活。。

2007-03-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

觉得自己蛮无聊的。工作忙碌时，没时间无聊。得空时，就有时间无聊了。没空时很想能够无聊一下，可是空闲下来，就觉得很废，无所事事。到底上帝放我在这个岗位上是为了什么呢？这是无聊时常会想的一个问题。其实我是知道答案的。可是，我没有努力去完成。

毕业后在家里呆了四年，父母还是没有信主。在教会的事奉好像很多，可是，没有真正好好地长期策划一下。身为少年团导师，儿童主日学副校长，差传布道部的文书，这许多吃重的事工都需要策划，可是我都没有做到。与神的关系，太懒散了！没有积极地读经祷告。

所以，我对上帝常感到亏欠。今天牧师问我们大家对教会有什么不满。我那敢吭声啊！如要不满，须得付出！没有付出，就不该抱怨！惭愧啊！

我想，我将太多的心思放在工作上了。我可以由早上到晚上十几小时毫不间断的工作。在家中休息时，心心念念的也是我的工作。我妈说我，不管给我做什么工作也是这样的。我的生活中只懂得工作。唉，可悲啊！

我对上帝说，我以后要为祂的国度忙，而不是为了世俗而忙碌。我的意思不是说基督徒工作就很属世，而是，我宁可将我的心思、我的干劲用在神的事工上。好好使用上帝给我的恩赐才干来事奉祂。

所以，如今仍得在我的岗位上加油。我知道上帝在预备我，将我塑造成祂合用的器皿。主啊，求祢怜悯我，使用我！我在这里，请差遣我。。。保守圣洁，为主使用。。。欣薇，加油！starts well, finish well!

"OLD"

2007-03-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

Oh no!!! Today my church frens told me that I grow older!!!! Oh no!!! how can it be? I know that I grow thinner recently... but older??? did I grow older?? Yoh.... cannot accept... here I posted a photo for you all.. I grow older ar? I din see any lines on my face ler...

Really scared to grow old.. I think everyone thought so...

suddenly found out that recently I posted quite some message here... I think I got back myself and my time.. I will work hard to get my free time back!!....

My dream

2007-03-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

Longing to serve the Lord together with you... This is my thought whenever I serving in Church together with other brothers and sisters. Always hope that whenever I say a please, the person who answer is you.

We are apart soon after we started our relationship, and till now, it is almost 4 years. Most of the time, we are away from each other. How will it be when we are near to each other and serving the Lord together? We might fight because of different thinking and different opinion. However, it is really nice for me having you around, helping me, sharing me your thoughts, discussing with me and do all the things together.

It is so prescious for me to have you around. It is my dream which yet to come true.

I will wait patiently for the day to come.

默念祢的爱。。

2007-03-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

每当我一个人面对着电脑，听着赞美诗歌，就让我想起我的大学生活。我的大学时光我的一段非常美丽的回忆。我的大学生活更是我人生极大的转捩点。因我在那遇上了与我约定了的主。祂将我从罪恶中拯救出来。

我真的不敢相信如果我没有祂，我会是如何。主啊，祢是我的磐石，我的山寨，是我所依靠的。在祢，没有难成的事。而我，在祢爱中安然稳妥。无须担心，无须惊慌。这就是祢所赐的平安。只因有祢，在大的困难，我也深信祢在掌权。

我非常喜欢的一首诗歌：I offer my life...

All that I am, all that I have, I lay them down before You, oh Lord.
All my regrets, all my acclaim, The joy and the pain, I'm making them Yours.

Lord, I offer my life to You, Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory.
Lord, I offer my days to You,Lifting my praise to You,
as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord, I offer You my life.

Things in the past, things yet unseen, Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true.
All of my hopes, all of my plans, My heart and my hands are lifted to You.

Lord, I offer my life to You, Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory.
Lord, I offer my days to You, Lifting my praise to You, as a pleasing sacrifice.
Lord, I offer You my life.

以往，总是会怕，怕主用困难来试验我。

但是，我的主，祂用祂的呵护和看顾来告诉我：欣薇，不用害怕，相信我，信靠我。

是的，我主，我信。我信。因祢的道路高过我的道路，祢为我预备的，永远是最好的。

主啊，感谢祢，因我属于祢。

每当向未信主的朋友分享福音，总好希望他们也能像我一样，尝一尝主恩的滋味。朋友们，真的很希望你也能得着主的这一份爱。

Serving Him

2007-03-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I shared in youth fellowship regarding the title "follow up"

"Follow up" of course is talking about follow up with new believers. This is not the first time I teach about this topic, but is the first time teaching so many at the same time. After the fellowship, some brother and sister came to me and say that I taught it well. However, in my heart, I feel heavy.

I remembered that a pastor shared with the congregation about the heaviness of preaching. If after a sharing/preaching is done, no changes happened in heart, or everyone seems very happy after the sharing, the speaker ought to feel sad. Yea.. it is hard to be teacher, when you teach, you have to make sure that you do what you taught. When you teach, you have to be careful not to teach the wrong thing and to speak the right word. It is easy to say something which will please everyone. However, if God is not using the teacher, no matter how hard the teacher tried, everything equals to zero. May God have mercy on me. I know that I still have a lot more to learn. I pray that God not only training my skill of serving him, but also train my character. I do not want to be an expert in serving, but empty in the relationship with God. Lord, have mercy on me.

In future, I want to use my life to serve Him. Lord, I have made up my mind to follow You. I want to invest my life in something which I can bring to eternal.

Changes in my family

2007-03-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

Today is last day of new year. Very noisy, extremely noisy. Full of noise created by fire crackers.

Just now I went for a function organised by Austin Heights Sdn Bhd. Oh.. forgot to introduce. Austin Height is the Taman that I just shifted into. My dad bought a house here and we just shifted here not too long ago.

Austin Height is a fully guarded housing area, with high walls around the area. There are guards guarding the entrance and exits. If you are not a resident here, you have to leave your ic/driving license in order for you to enter into this housing area. It sounds really safe in this area, especially in JB, such a high criminal rate city.

Frankly, I seldom go out with my parents since I had grown up. However, don't know ever since when, I like to go out with my parents. I think God is working in my house. The bonding within me and my parents are getting closer. I am really happy to see the change in my family. Mum is obviously looks happy with this change too... My parents love each other more and more ever since we deciding to shift to this new area. Don't ask me why. I really do not know the reason why.

God, thanks for everything. I am sure that, you will bring my parents to You, one day.

New job, new life

2007-02-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since my previous post. I have been in my new job for 2 months. It is much difficult than I could think of. I am still struggling to get used to my new job.

Stress... so much stressful compared to my previous job. So many things need me to take care of and handle it. The reason why I quit my last job is because of stress.. I hope I can get a job in which I can have my personal life. But when I am into my new job, it doesn't seems satisfying me. I am still required to work OT, and also Saturday and even Sunday...

It makes me ponder. Why am I here since it is so much tougher than my previous job? Accountant... it means u need to do all the things that others don't want to do..

I know I sounded negative.... I just hope I can be more positive.

I give myself 3 months' time trying to adopt to new job and new environment. I trust that God's leading is never wrong. I trust that God has His reason for bringing me here.

Dear Lord, if You think that this environment could mold me into the shape that You want me to be, please help me to endure the hardship.

The end of free time

2006-12-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

Initially I was informed to report for work on 15/12/2006, but later on changed to 18/12/2006. So, today is my last day working in my friend's accounting firm. Today is also the last day of my long break after resigned from Ernst & Young.

Time flies. Up to 18/12/2006, I had rested for 2 and half months. For the month of October I was busy preparing for my CPA exam, and starting from 13/11/2006, I begin to work in my friend's accounting firm as Partimer. Even though I seems occupied, but I was free to go anywhere when I want. So, I made used of my free time and travelled to KL for three times during this long break.

So, end of this week, ended my free time. I will again commit to another company. However, I will receive salary for my hard work. After 2 months of no income, I start to sense the important of having a proper job.

For tomorrow and the day after, I want to get myself prepared and ready for upcoming challenges. Cynthia, all the best!!

最后决定

2006-12-04T18:01:00.000+08:00

Confirmed了。明天会到新公司签署Employment Letter。15/12正式上班。忐忑不安。。将未知数交托给天父。

面试二

2006-12-03T16:18:00.000+08:00

昨天我出席了第二个面试。这个面试非常特别，因为我并没有像星期五的面试一样被问很多问题。反而是我一直不断地在问问题。除此之外，整个面试是以华文交谈的！这是一间上市公司，约见我的是执行董事。这位老板非常之友善，而整个面谈中，他都非常耐心地向我讲解我的工作范围。

就这样，这位老板说了约有一个小时后，他吩咐我回家慎重考虑是否愿意加入他们当中。

哇！经过了两个面试后，我突然之间感到身价暴涨。原以为无人问津，突然之间竟有两间大公司都希望能入取我。真是受宠若惊！哈利路亚感谢主！

好啦，兴奋了一轮后，是时候做决定了。以下是我的分析：
1。A公司离家近；B公司则较远，又会遇到交通阻塞。
2。A公司遍布好几个国家，母公司是新加坡的上市公司；B公司是马来西亚的上市公司，业务集中于新山。
3。A公司的会计部门较well established，单是我负责的部分已有四位会计行政助理；B公司整个Account部门只有两个Account clerk加两个Accountant，而我加入后，我就是两个Accountant中的其中一位。
4。A公司是五天制；B公司是五天半制。
5。A公司中，在我之上还有上司-Finance Manager；B公司中可以说整个Account Department我最大，故没有人管。
6。A公司财务状况不清楚；B公司资金雄厚，故不怕给人追债。

说来说去，似乎A公司较好。可是，请大家为我祷告，求主让我晓得祂的心意。

无奈

2006-12-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

今天在Interview之前，出了一些小状况。在营会中信主的其中一位小弟兄call我。他在电话的另一端显得非常难过。甚至哭了。他对我说他向他母亲述说有关他信主的事，结果母亲大骂了他一顿。我听见他那难过的声音，心都酸了。我开导他并提醒他千万不要硬来以至伤了他与母亲的关系。而后，我也透过电话来为他祷告。要让人改观需要经过时间的洗涤。所以我不断地提醒这小弟兄要忍耐，要沉得住气。求主亲自做改变人心的工。

新工作

2006-12-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

感谢主~！今天一早上就有两间公司找我去面试。第一间联络上我的公司是我在前一晚上才寄出我的resume的，而第二间公司，resume则是寄出有好一段日子了。结果，两家公司的interview我都接下了。前者在今天3pm，后者则是明天1：30pm。

由于我目前正在我教会的一位弟兄所开的Accounting Firm帮忙，所以仓促间，我回家拿了我的重要文件便赶到那间公司去。

整个interview进行了两个半小时，是超级无敌的久。Interview我的是一位大约三十几岁的女经理。从她的下属的口中，我得知她的职位是Finance Manager。

我所应征的职位是Financial Accountant。听起来还真好听。那位女经理问了好多好多的问题，甚至对我所属的教会感兴趣。果然不出我所料，在我大赤赤的询问下，我得知她也是基督徒。真是太感谢上帝了。竟在它乡遇故人。

我们聊了好多，不只公事还有私事。由她的反应看得出她对我相当满意。最后，她confirm了要请我，并要我在月中上班。

就在她出去请另一位经理进来小谈时，我向上帝祷告。我好怕我一冲动便会冒冒然地接受了这份工作。于是我开始思考我是否应该加入这公司。当我冷静下来时，我才察觉到这间公司符合了我所有的条件与要求。首先，地点离家近、还有，薪金令人满意、再有，上司又是姐妹、以及我将会在查帐中遇回我的前同事及前经理们、更加上工作时间是五天制。在思考了后，我表示我愿意接下这份工作。可是因为我第二天仍有另一间公司的面试，我便据实告知这两位经理。而他们也答应让我去了明天的面试后再给予他们最后肯定。

Interview 结束后，我向神献上感恩，感谢祂的带领。

年终时分

2006-12-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

圣诞节一步步逼近，一年转眼已来到尾声。时间快得吓人，只一晃眼的功夫，一年就过去了。禁不住提醒自己，把握当下，别让时间白白流逝。

每每与人分享福音，就会告诉他/她，创造我们的上帝对每一个人都有一个计划，而当我们照着主的教导而行，我们就会过一个丰盛的生命。

什么是丰盛的生命呢？其实我到如今仍在探索。但是，肯定的一点是，我必须不断维持我与上帝的关系，多多亲近祂。爱必须付诸行动。

求主引领我前面的方向。

"少年心世界"福音营

2006-11-29T19:12:00.000+08:00

期待以久的"少年心世界"福音营终于告一段落了。这是我第一次参加福音营，也是我第一次在营会中担任导师、操纵LCD projector、膳食、舍监这四重身份。还有，更是我第一次抱病参加营会。为着我的感冒来感谢主，因它提醒我我需要更依靠上帝。

营会前我便开始为这营会来祷告，特别是为着参加这次营会的新朋友祷告。所以当我在营会见到我的羊儿们时，并没有生疏感。被安排到我的组别的是13、14岁的大孩子。看着他们一张张稚嫩的脸庞，我真的好希望能帮助他们更认识上帝。

我们这次营会的讲员是马锦华老师。他不只是一位中学老师，更是一位辅导员。在他手下有无数的辅导个案。所以，请他来主讲这次的营会，再适合不过了。听着他一堂堂绝无冷场的讲座，连我也获益匪浅。

连续几堂的信息下来，我的组中有两位少年人决志信了主。而整个营会共有六位少年人在呼召时举起了手。他们当中有一些还是第一次听福音，可是却单纯地选择信靠了上帝。这群少年人真是太可爱了！

在这个营会接近尾声使，出了一个小插曲。有一位营员的handphone不见了。当下，我便和师母及导师们决定要进行搜查。我非常害怕手机真的是被某个少年人偷了，若是如此，场面必定很难收拾。在我们查了约十人的行李后，轮到我查失主的行李。一番仔细搜查后，竟然让我从她自己的行李当中找出她不见了的手机。全场顿时轰动起来。大家当然不忘笑骂那少年人一顿。我也在这时放下了心中大石。这也是我最希望看见的结局。

在欢笑声中，"少年心世界"福音营就结束了。主啊，求祢保守那撒下的种子。

Admiration & adoration

2006-11-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

Love starts and sustains through admiration and adoration. However, normally when two get in love after few years, the demanding nature seems overwrite these two. Thank God that I still admire him a lot though we had been together for years. It is really enjoyable of seeing him as who he is.

Admire of his responsible nature…

Admire of his gentlemen…

Admire of his principle sticking…

Admire of his sporting nature…

Admire of his leadership…

Enjoy when seeing how he serves God…

Enjoy in his care and love…

He is a nice guy, and he suits me well…

He had grown up, and he is still growing…

Thank God for everything, thank God for him…

儿童主日学老师

2006-11-05T21:14:00.000+08:00

腓利门书是保罗的其中一封书信，是为一位逃奴，阿尼西谋，而写给他的主人，腓利门，的一封求情的信。从没有试过从阿尼西谋的角度来看这封书信。而因儿童主日学的原故，我对这封书信有了不一样的认识。这封书信描写阿尼西谋的信主过成。阿尼西谋从腓利门家逃跑后，被逮捕，而后关进地窟。而也因此，认识了因福音的原故而遭受牢狱之灾的保罗。在牢中，阿尼西谋接受了主耶稣成为他的救主，而他的生命从此被改变。

要教导小小的孩童们什么是肉体的捆绑和灵里的捆绑还真是不简单。要让他们了解什么是灵里的自由更是困难。毕竟对他们来说，罪的捆绑太过抽象。我就举例让他们明白什么是被罪捆绑。我说：“罪的捆绑就比如，一个人抽烟抽上隐，而也因为这个罪被捆绑了。”给了这个例子后，我又觉得对小朋友们来说还是不够贴切，所以我又举了另一个例子：“你非常地喜欢看电视节目，所以你一天到晚地看个不停，结果你就被电视节目捆绑了，而你也就好像为了电视节目而活一样。”说到这里时，我还真是惭愧。因为我就是被连续剧捆绑了好些时候。好，惭愧了过后，还是必须继续教导这些小小孩童。

儿童主日学老师，是我非常喜欢的一个事奉岗位。因为往往在教导的过程中，我自己也被圣灵教导。每当我绞尽脑汁地让小朋友们简单地明白圣经的教导时，我就必须先将神的话语一句一句地消化了再将讯息传达出来。这个岗位往往让懒散的我重新出发。我想，这是我永远都不会厌倦的事奉岗位。

真爱

2006-10-22T13:32:00.000+08:00

两个人要彼此吸引，已是一件不容易的事情。必须天时地利人和三方面具备。虽然如今科技发达，地利方面已不成问题，两人一个在东，一个在西，仍然能够互相认识。但是，时间方面却是关键。不对的时间，可能遇见对的人，但是决不是时候开始两人的故事；同样的，对的时间，遇见不对的人，事也不可能成就。

就算给你在对的时间，遇见对的人，两人之间还是不会完全百分百适合对方。毕竟，两个人，不同个体，不同成长背景，不同思想，要彼此接纳，还挺不容易的，更需要时间彼此了解，彼此包容。别以为你的肋骨就该和你有同样的想法。别做梦！

由相识，到相知，到相爱，到相惜，若果没有上帝的爱在当中，想必困难重重，更是失了重心，没了主宰。就好像在狭窄的天路上设下障碍物，一不小心便更加容易跌入窄路两旁的鸿沟。就算两人当中有了上帝，若果依然自己掌权，就如属肉体的基督徒一样，将不能享有丰盛的生命，更别说共同完成上帝的托付。

所以，真爱，不只要等待，更要一同经营。

愿人人皆能觅得能与之一同经营真爱的对像，持子之手，与子偕老。当然，主若许可。

Meet my new friend

2006-10-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

Forgot to introduce, my new friend! Cost me RM3299.

Life after resign

2006-10-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

Sleep, eat, watch tv... I think most people will think that I am doing these. However, except all these, I am busy for my last paper of my CPA professional exam. Recently, when people ask me wat am I doing, I will answer: I am studying. Their reaction will normally be: 'Oh! You are still a student!' Sounded so unbelivable ya. Why not? Though am in the age of 26, I still can study what!

My exam falls on 27/10, it's a Friday. I am kind of nervous already. The exam for this time is different from my previous papers. And I am not allowed to fail!!! A failure will caused me to spend for another RM2000!!! Yea, normal accountant behaviour -- always talk about efficiency. Meaning stingy enough la. No, I cannot fail.

Though the exam is just around the corner, yesterday I attended 1 of my sister in Christ's wedding. Busy for whole day for her and her husband. Having complicated feeling on the way from bride's house to bridegroom's house.

No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark; and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. that is how it will be at the coming of the Son of man. (Matthew 24: 36-39)

The 2nd coming of the Lord, will be just another normal day. Am I ready for His coming? I cannot stop reminding myself of this. When I am too busy in my own stuff, am I on the right track?

Recently some problems bothering me. I just couldn't get rid of it. I know that the Lord ask me to pray and stop worrying for it. And I know that worry will never help. I think I am just too free until get all these thing on my mind and cant let go. I have to keep on learning, have faith in the Lord.

The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law. (Deuteronomy 29:29)

Yea, thank God for this verse, just do what I know I should do, and the rest of thing, leave it to God. No fear, no worry, give thanks always~

part and parcel

2006-10-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

Wanted to post these pictures for long time, but just couldn't get myself to get this done. An introduction of my previous job as Auditor.

This is the scenery when I look out from the window just in front of my desk. Though cannot see moutain and sea, but there are trees and a big 'padang' (not shown in the picture). That's y I say, besides the room of partners and managers, my sitting is the best.

This is an empty seat next to me, but end up become my filing room. I know that it's messy, but I just do not have time to organise it till the day I leave EY.

This is the only wall paper which is allowed to be shown on screen. You can change it but please prepare to be scolded.

This is my main tool as auditor besides my brain, my "ka chang" to eat a bowl of rice.

Whenever you step inside EYJB office, u can immediately see this logo.

Unemployed

2006-10-07T08:47:00.000+08:00

Though I am not really fullfil the meaning of unemployment, coz I am not actively seeking for a job, but I am still "not employed"!

It is not that bad to be not employed, but my laptop, which is provided by company all the while, was returned back. So, don't be puzzle when u did not see any of my posting recently.

For my next job, it might still be in JB. Though I put the word "might", I am 90%++ confirmed that God wants me to be in JB.

It is good to be in JB, coz I will be near to my beloved parents, and I will be under protection!!

But it is not good to be in JB too, coz I will need to physically be separated from my beloved bf for another, hopefully is only, 2 years.

Anyhow, God's plan is the best, God's way is higher than mine. My Lord, I surrender.

Farewell

2006-09-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

Today, 29/9/2006 will be my last day in Ernst & Young JB. My colleagues asked me do I feel sad, I answered them: NO! However, yesterday when I drive back home from office as usual, I suddenly have complicated feeling. The feeling is just like you study like crazy before the exam, and when you come out from the exam hall after your last paper, you feel lost and empty.

when I look back my past, I still remember the 1st day I go to work, everything to me is new and alient. And I still remember the 1st time when I was scolded by my senior, she shouted to me: "You should know what you are doing!!" It is really true that I should always know what I am doing and not blindly follow.

When time goes by, I promoted from a new junior into an experienced junior. I were pushed to lead those smaller audit team. Deferred Taxation is 1 thing which make me crack my head to do it. Thanks to seniors, Pei Pei who actually teached me and helped me to complete my first deferred taxation.

And from experienced junior, I were promoted into a new senior. I started to lead bigger audit team. Coaching the juniors make my job even more meaningful. Sometimes, I will try to share with them my thinking, and also my belief. It is amaze when I actually see the change of view point of them after I talked to them.

And now, experienced senior, even though only for half a year in this position, I can see how manager trusts me more and more than last time when I have less experience. It is also quite proud when I can tell people: I am now senior 1! It represents seniority and status.

So, today will be my last day. Thanks for all the frenship given by my fellow colleagues, and thanks for all the coaching by my ex and current seniors and managers. I will not be where am I now without your presence in my life.

随笔

2006-09-25T08:41:00.000+08:00

昨天没有接到Manager的电话，意思就是，我我可以在今天享有一天的假期！真的是太开心了。似乎很久没有那么空闲了。

最近有太多的人问我在辞职后有何打算。唉，怎么一定要有所打算的吗？工作了这些年，更应该好好充一充电！

27/10有最后一张试卷，考完了，就能够拿到我的专业文凭了。有时问自己，拿到又如何呢？拿到了后，每年又多一笔开销--membership fee。若要拿到Malaysia Institute of Accountant 的 recognition，又是另一笔开销。如果以后要转行，这些专业资格将会成为累赘。

前面的路，需要继续寻求主的带领。要找一份新工作，并不是问题，只要晓得上帝的心意。有时候会想，如果我可以自己做决定，就好咯！可是，没有主的带领，每一步都将没有意义。一个以自我为中心的生命，是死的生命。

虽然疲乏，仍要追赶。。

Birthday girl!!

2006-09-22T15:06:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is my birthday. Again, another year gone. This year will be a transition period for me after my previous transition when I stepped out from University. This year, I resigned from Ernst & Young after 3 years of serving. I have many thoughts in my mind of the things I hope to accomplish. I dun know when will be my time for these thing to be accomplish, or maybe some of it will never come true, but I know that no matter how, I need to be patient. Dear Father, please give me strength.

Tomorrow is my birthday, but I need to work overtime. I am glad that these kind of life will end at end of this month.

Someone in my heart

2006-09-22T14:35:00.000+08:00

In this passage, the main character is Miss Theresa. She is my Senior Manager. I did not work under her for the 1st 2 years in Ernst & Young. But starting end of 2005, I started to work under her supervision very often.

Before I have the chance to work with her, I heard a lot about her. This is because, 1 of my colleague always assigned to work under her portfolio. From my colleague, I knew that Miss Theresa is someone whom are very very very serious in her work. Her commitment to work is 100%. Her loyalty to the company is also 100%. I also heard of her strict attitude and demanding characteristic. That's the reason why whenever my colleague working under her, she will look stress and busy.

Finally, I had the chance to work under Miss Theresa. And I started to experiencing the stress. I was trained to recognised her foot step. Whenever she stepped out of her room, I will immediately be aware of it. I am requested by her to be serious about my work and strive my best to meet all the datelines.

After I get to know more about her, I realised of some other thing, especially during this period after I tender my resignation letter. She actually spent time to talk to me and hope can convince me to stay. Frankly speaking, I am really touched of her effort put. I started to see her gentleness. And even though I rejected to continue on serving in this company, she did not treat me bad. She still put effort in teaching me, taking the initiative to explain to me about things that I did not know, of course regarding auditing.

Even though our relationship as mentor and mentee will end at the end of this month, but she is someone whom will stays in my memory and heart.

Thank you, Miss Theresa. I love you and respect you. May the Lord bless you abundantly.

For the beauty of the earth

2006-09-19T19:07:00.000+08:00

Today I coincidently have the chance to listen to this song. This is a song that we previously sang in choir during CDPC Sunday Service. It make me think of the time when I was still uni student.

FOR THE BEAUTY OF THE EARTH
Words by F. S. Pierpoint; Music by John Rutter

For the beauty of the earth,
For the beauty of the skies,
For the love Which from our birth
Over and around us lies:
Lord of all, to Thee we raise
This our joyful hymn of praise.

For the beauty of each hour,
Of the day and of the night,
Hill and vale, and tree and flower,
Sun and moon and stars of light:
Lord of all, to Thee we raise
This our joyful hymn of praise.

For the joy of human love,
Brother, sister, parent, child,
Friends on earth And friends above
For all gentle thoughts and mild:
Lord of all, to Thee we raise
This our joyful hymn of praise.

For each perfect gift of Thine,
To our race so feeely given,
Graces,human and divine
Flow'rs of earth and buds of heavn'n:
Lord of all, to Thee we raise
This our joyful hymn of praise.

This our joyful hymn of praise.

要知道你所信的是谁

2006-09-19T09:23:00.000+08:00

这是一首我们非常熟悉的诗歌：重新得力

你为何说道路向主隐藏，冤屈主不查问
岂不知道，岂不听见永在的主，
祂的智慧无法测度。
疲乏困倦，祂赐能力；
软弱，祂加力量。
就连少年也要疲乏困倦，
强壮也必全然跌到。
但那等候耶和华的必要重新得力，
他们必如鹰展翅上腾，
但那等候耶和华的必要重新得力，
他们奔跑不困倦，行走不疲乏。

（要知道你所信的是谁！感谢主！）

篇后曲

2006-09-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

自从递上辞职信后，发生了好多事情。

首先是教会的执事改选。

我是在一个多月前知道自己被提名的。知道了后，感觉非常复杂。原因是，我原本想要在Mic找到工作后，自己也到KL工作。为的是想彼此能够一同配搭事奉，并无需长期分隔两地。被提名一事让我去KL的决心减低了一半。毕竟我岂能在上帝要使用我的时候拒绝被使用呢？所以我便开始预备心可能会被选上，并落实我要辞去Audit一职的意愿。

在改选之间，我的经理三番五次地劝我不要辞职，因她需要我协助她多半年的时间。我非常的挣扎，毕竟与她合作了一段不算短的时间，感情是有的。

公司给了我一星期的时间考虑。

在必需回复的前一天，改选结果揭晓，我并没有被选上。我也在当天重新考虑我的工作。是辞职，或是继续？

我非常清楚，若我继续多做半年，我的这半年肯定是非常忙碌的。

我所得到的也许是：薪金、花红、明年的升职、工作经验。

若我不继续，我可以在其它小规模的Audit firm做，或加入Commercial做会计师。再不然，去KL。

我想，若我留下，必会后悔的。因为留下来后，我又必须面对同一些我所不想面对的（工作压力）。我又害怕是惰性让我退缩。

在与Mic讨论了过后，他说，“怎么那么难决定啊？这样吧，若是我去Interview的公司入取我，你就辞职吧！”

在当天晚上，我简直想破脑袋。一直不断想着之前上帝给我的那节经文：你所做的要交托耶和华，你所谋的必成立 [箴言6:13]。想了半天，还是不晓得该做怎样的决定。

再考虑又考虑后，我想，还是照原定计划，走吧。走了，还是能够做Audit。不走，就不能跳出这个眶筐。

第二天一早，当我还在预备心要告诉我的经理们我的最后决定时，接到Mic的电话。原来他之前Interview的那家公司真的入取了他。而据Mic说，这是上帝给他的答案。

就这样，我就断然地辞职了。

Resignation

2006-09-04T09:43:00.000+08:00

Finally, I did it...