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Yesterday was Deepavali. Normally when come to festive season, I will definitely go on leave and meeting mic. However, for this Deepavali holiday, I did not go anywhere.

Frankly speaking, most of the time when I am free, I feel bored. Just like yesterday, I watched TVB series for whole day. The feeling is like, the whole day is wasted and gone. I can choose to go out with friends, but I am just too lazy to socialised with people. I feel like going for shopping, but the feeling of shopping alone is wierd. So, I ended up staying at home hugging TV. You must be thinking: why don't you read your bible since you are so boring. The reason why is because, I let myself to be so.

On Wednesday, something happened to me. I quarrelled with my colleague. I know that I was wrong as I can't control my temper. I was in bad mood since Tuesday night due to some reason (don't feel like sharing it here). And it has caused me to have bad mood for few days and even till this moment. I don't mean to quarrel and I know that quarrel doesn't help in solving problem, but I just want to let the other party knows that she should have respecting me. It is hard to cooperate if without this basic respect. I might not quarrel with her if I was not in bad mood. She shouted at me at last and this ended up the quarrel.

It is really challenging of being a human. So many problem facing each day and I have to always remind myself to choose the right thing and learn to be a better person. Mic always laugh at me and say: since it is so hard to be human, then be cat lor! Well, God loves me and that's why He created me. So, I must live my life happily and meaningfully. I know I sounded negative tonight.

I just hope that thing could be settled in a much matured way. For me, having cold war can be much more hurting than quarreling or scolding. Is it right to choose to deal with problem in this way? Believe me, I can still be hurt more seriously. I was reminded of my past. Lord, I need you.